LET'S SHARE OUR LAST KISS.

2004-05-11T15:40:00.000+08:00

haha gosh i just realised that i havn't been to blogger in 84793275893 years and i didn't even know about the new style thinga until i read rachel's blog.i doubt anyone's gonna come here haha since i've moved like ages ago but doesn't matter.anyone who happens to come here,go to my xanga and tag me cos i'm rather curious about who actually still vistits me old blog.haha!funny.i'm gonna do something boring and silly like read my old entries and laugh at them or something. ..perhaps.anyhoo,cyah!(to whoever actually comes here) haha i find this amusing.ok bye~

2004-03-11T16:32:00.000+08:00

okok.i've decided that im officially NOT using this blog anymore.k?so from now onwards,go to my xanga.

2004-03-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

ok.i've moved.lol.but it's not much so i might still be posting here for awhile.meanwhile,u can continue tagging me.thanks.

2004-03-10T14:47:00.000+08:00

u know what?im kinda thinking of changing my blog to xanga.i find xanga pretty cool and all.yahh.so tell me what u think yeah?shit my whole comp's screwing up on me.

anyway.im back from school.(:(: it's good to be away from school man.that place can kill you.well yeaps.i wanted to go support b divs tennis after school but i couldnt in the end.so that made me kinda pissed.yups.finally saw chermaine today.first time i saw her in school.HAHA.well she asked me to go support her at the tennis b divs finals la.and then she said that tits was going too.so i wanted to go.it was at nus.after school i called tits and asked him and like "wtf are u gay you're going to support MY school??" haha he said chermaine forced him so..yeah.it's mg against rg today.WOOT.pretty exciting huh.lol.rgs sucks(no offense).hohums.bored again as usual.see ya.

2004-03-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

back from tennis.yups it was soooo boring as usual.everything went so slowly.ahh must persevere.anyway next week's the school hols.the week after,back to school,and we're split into groups.whee.dint go to kap again this week.doubt hannah and i would be going every tuesday anymore.cos..yah.after tennis hannah and i had a goodgood talk with griselda,who's so amazingly nice.oh well.not very unexpected actually.yeaps.then went home.offered hannah and griselda a ride but HANNAH refused cos she wanted to talk more.pffft.haha.yahh.and err.it's been a pretty boring day so far,and i presume it'll continue being boring til..FOREVER...gahh.

2004-03-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

haha havnt updated today.well i just finished chinese tuition.and i had to chase my laoshi home.so she got pretty pissed.cos i have test this thursday.HOHUm.err.today wasnt much really.the quadrangle was flooded.haha.real high.like up to your hip or something.it's been raining since 12am last night.haha and still raining now.it'll be real cool if it wouldnt stop raining and u see the quadrangle flooded up to your head or something.it'll be cooler any one of the teachers drowned.HAHA.yeh yeh im evil.but teachers are evil shit man.im gonna call someonee now.cos im really really bored.and i havnt done my chinese assignment.it was due 3 weeks ago.shit.i dont think my teacher really noticed anyway.what a hoe.haha.narh she's nice like hell man.ahh dint realise stephanie was online till now.heehaw.new name for sheryl..haha.TEO bu.oh wait.another one.i just thought of one more.CHIO TEO.hehehhee.mrs sim sucks.oh yah i got my geog and science test back already.yuckyuck yuck.actually im pretty happy with my shit results la.cos i dint really study for it.WHEE.and jo's not coming tmr.YAYYY.i wanna play tenniss..lalalalala.i love you.you love me.we are happy family!i must remember to bring my cam tmr.haha so maybe the quadrangle's still flooded.and we'll take happy pics.hohum.

had health checkup today.the forward bending test and everything.to check for a curve in your spine.mine's 6 degrees.the nurse wants me to go for checkup at the doctors.haha i took the time of 3 people.hehe.but heck.6 degrees aint much.when i told mom,she said i dont have to go checkup.haha.my grandma's muhhch worse.hers is like an 'S' shape.and vally's too.but not that bad.aiyahhh.im bored.i needa call someone.did i just say that awhile ago?hah.

2004-03-07T13:28:00.000+08:00

just got back from barkerr.and i wanted to buy the gummy ducks thingy that steph's so crazy about.haha.turns out that i DO know what gummy ducks are,and that i've eaten them before.just dint know it's name.heh.okay so we left the auditorium half way and went to the canteen.that's when i found tits with douglas.then lk came.so steph hannah lk kerry and i sorta hung out for awhile.there was abit of conflicts and stuff and im glad i dint get involved.shit dont wanna publisize it.but yah.and alex was dissing me along the way.hahahaha..quite amusing.but oh wells.kerry dint go for cheerobics in the end.steph gave lk and hannah a ride.ahh sheit i couldnt go.so hung out with tits douglas bryan and chermaine for awhile.then later douglas me tits and darius shared a cab,stopped at my place.then i think they went off to acsi for rugby or something like that.duno la.KENTUT.hahaha.cant get over that word.im bored like shit now.

....we're m0vingg~waveee

oh yeah i was just on the phone with my grandma who called.so i told her i went to church this morning.and then yeah she was telling me how it's good and that i should go more often and i whenever i call i should call bebe and ask her to come along since she NEVER goes.lol.so i asked her about her being baptist and everything.and she told me she was baptized TWICE.haha it was quite funny.she said the first time,her grandma took her when she was little.the SECOND time,she went to another church after she was married.and she said that she's not supposed to do that.hohum..yahh and she was telling me that i once i know the bible well(or something like that),and know that jesus loves me and everything,and once im ready,i should go to church with tits and ya.basically,just go for baptism.wasnt too sure what she was saying.yeapps.
lalala.OKAY SHUTTUP.

2004-03-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

just finished dinner and everything.back from hannah's church.haha saw nic there and everything.yeahh.another thing,i kinda made a mistake in my previous entry.about the sunday school and worship thing.yups.it's supposed to be COMMUNION.my bad.sorry steph.hmmm yeaps.pretty bored today.went for body world exhibition thingy at singapore expo.yeaps.then went home.slacked for awhile.went on the comp.and then went to the busstop.hohums.aiyahh.it's been sucha boring day.seriously.and i havnt done my work.blahh.

2004-03-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

harlowww.haha.ughh that's a stupid word.anyway i just finished tuition.haha.see,i.am.not.a.potato.cos i actually do study.whee.ohh gosh im so bored like crazayee.haha.went out with hannah and bev just now.went to far east.hohum.i might be going to steph's church this sunday.and apparently she aint going for sunday school nor worship.so it's kinda silly to go to church and just hang around?yups.ahh.lala.i kinda still owe kel a testi cos she wrote me a really sweet one.and i owe her a long one since i told her i'd write her one.ahh heck.

oh im writing kelly one now.and im pretty bored now.

2004-03-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

poseur you,or poseur you not.poseur me,or poseur me not.

err.nvm.ignore the title.wheehe.ohh i learnt a new word last night.kentut.haha.it means FART in malay.haha.hmm..eating skittles again.yumm.they're like my best friends.haha.sighh.teri's page is taking a long time to load.ughh.and i just tagged her.(: and I LUBCH YOU TOO KEL.time for u to update hannah.haha.goshh he's so hot.haha.no kidding.SOOOO DAYMNNN HOOOTT.hahah sorry.hohum.friendster's lagging.well not just friendster actually.cos EVERYTHING'S lagging.imagestation's lagging.teri's blog's lagging.friendster's lagging.ughh.steph's on a diet.i dont see the need for her to be on a diet tho.she's too damn thin already.ahhh.im just gonna close the windows.sorry teri.dont blame me for not tagging u.it's all your blog's faukt.haha.ahh i dont have anything to blog about mans.the days are getting more and more boring.sad but it's true.something fulfilling tonight,TENNIS!woot.haha.sorry.it's fulfilling to me.not my fault la.and genia just asked how i can have so much to blog about.well genia,if u actually noticed,im crapping about.haha.sighh i miss those really longlonglonglong entries.where i can literally TALK about THINGS.u know?yups.OH i apparently DO have something else to talk about.haha.

ahh heck.i stink.had emergency exercise today.the really ~~deafening~~ fire alarm went off,we rushed to the carpark.erica and i started pretending to be p1s.u know when these things happen,they get really FREAKED out?haha.so we started screaming and waving our arms around.budden everyone else in class followed what we did,so it got pretty annoying.yups.so we stopped.hohum.-.- they really used a fire extinguisher.haha.they started spraying it.thank goodness i was ahead of the foggy stuff.that thing's just bad.when u inhale it,it feels like someone punched u in the nose.hah.serious.cos that time in nanyang nat sprayed it.omg.it was sooo bad.haha.apparently there was supposed to be a bomb sound.but i dint hear it.no one really did actually. ...I THINK?heh.we were under the hot sun for so long.there was an ambulance,a fire engine,and even a police car.WITH policemen,mind u.haha.yups.and these girls had to lift the other girl up onto the stretcher.ahh this and that.miss wee had a "broken arm" and a "bleeding" face with "scratches" on it.heh yups.nothing much really.my "something" to talk about,err.ends here.haha.

2004-03-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

i feel sooooo accomplished and fulfilled todayy.all cos of 2 people,who really touched me in more ways than one.and i must type this entry in bold since it's gonna be so short.but they really touched me in a way i can never explain.never expected anything like this.whee.sorry i cant help but feel high.today's like a really 'ups and downs' day for me.i get pissed one moment,but i cool off soon after and i start feeling really joyous again.all cos i feel so accomplished and good and ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL.you guys probably wouldnt understand what i mean.doesnt matter.im just expressing.whalalallalaa.I LUBCH YOUUUU!haha.sorry.bye.

2004-03-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

my ng's so nice.

home again!ahh finally.haha.straight after school i had to rush off to the dentist.when i got there,i had to wait for about half an hour(26 mins to be exact.lol).hmpfs.well finally it was my turn.turns out the tooth i was complaining about the other day,is actually a really BIG cavity.so he had to fill it up.blahh.and then i had to extract a baby tooth cos it was in the way.and the other tooth was growing out already.haha.first,he rubbed some nasty-tasting gel around the area of the tooth.then he injected the outter part,after which,he injected the inner part.haha.ooohh the pain.yess well,THEN,he used some funny thing to extract the tooth out.couldnt feel a thing cos of the jab which numbed the whole area.hahha.was kinda scary tho.heck.looking thru the yearbook again.found jiayi.lk looks soooo seductive in it!haha.damnn.the area where that tooth used to be still feels really numb.blehh.

owe px a testi now.(:(:

2004-03-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday vally

heyy.there was tennis today.-and..my friendster's screwed up.- yups.went to kap as usual.haha going to kap's like a every tuesday routine man.just that this time it was without steph.sighh cos she's in the squash training squad now.haha but we dint go to macs for lunch.ate lunch at school cos we wanted to go for the drum course.haha miss wee could only spare us some time cos she had to rush off to go somewhere so yeah.the next drumming session'll be longer tho.probably about two hours.whee.well hannah and i quickly tried playing then went off to kap just to buy gummies.and sushi for me too (: quicky rushed back.it was beginning to drizzle,and my HANdsome and i dint want our tennis session to be affected so we were getting really weird.hahhaha on the way back we were like,"Lord please dont let it rain Lord.In Jesus's name,Amen." haha.and we kept repeating it.okay not funny.nevermind.

humdeedoom.science test tmr.had tuition just now.whoops.forgot to call steph back.not sure whether she's asleep yet.ackks.ohh wells.i was just calling her back since she called me just now.so i'll ask her tmr.hehe.sighh i spotted kel,liping and shar in the school yearbook.haha.humdeedoogs.

2004-03-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

okay i havnt updated today.talking to frankie now.wheehee.and replying genia's letter.the one i've been oweing her for a week or two.hah.frankie claims that sec 2s use diaryland and sec 1s use blogspot.EXCUSE ME.hahahha i was gonna change mine to diaryland.but be beat me to it.haha so i decided not to in the end.dint take actions quick enough.im probably gonna change it to diaryland one of these days tho.it's good to switch around.

hmm.today,i woke up soo damn early.530am.haha no kidding.went to school damn early.they wanted to give us prep time for chapel.but in the end it wasnt much use.dint really make use of it.haha.sang for chapel today.whee.i just realised how stoned we look.goshh u can see so much on stage.everyone's like stoning.ackk.yups.well i had chinese tuition just now.pissed laoshi off again,as usual.cos i dint bring my kebens home.haha.my bad.

sighh.there're getting less and less things to post about.i make it a point to update everyday tho.sorry i couldnt update yesterday.i've been updating on alternate days.been really really busy lately.goshh.havnt even been replying letters.now u know why i've been oweing genia her letter for a week or two. (:

2004-02-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

my teeth hurts.sooo badly.i cant type.HURTS LIKE HELL DAMMIT.ackk.im gonna take forever to type this entry.fuckk.stupid shit.no my teeth isnt rotting or anything.the pain is scrutinising.okay.i'll persevere.whee.i just had 4 panadols.dont think it's gonna work much cos i took 10 the last time.hahah shhhh.but ohh wells.it'll do.hurts like crazy.

okayy.err.today,i woke up at 11am.hahha.reluctant as i was,i had no choice but to wake up cos i had to go visit my grandmama.my teeth dont hurt a single bit anymore.anyway so we went to the hospital.aunt helen and aunt lina were both there.plus my grandfather.shit man.i forgot my aol password.so now i lost all my contacts from tennis camp.anywayy.bebe was there too.after awhile be and her mom left to go paragon to wash their hairs..??haha.yups.later on at 115 my granddad,mel,mom,aunt lina and i walked over to paragon to eat lunch.tits was wearing GLASSES!oh my shit haha it was so retarded.he looked like a nerd.he wore the glasses as an assesory.he dint even need it.there wasnt any degree.and my granddad was like,"DONT WEAR IT IF U DONT NEED IT."haha.hmm..after lunch my grandad went home i guess.tits and bryan left together.everyone else left actually,except me,mom,mel,vally,be,and aunt helen.we went to shop around.val was still kinda dazed from last night.haha she celebrated her 17th birthday at zouk and i heard that she got so drunk.hahhaa.well we walked around for awhile.did some shopping.bought a pair of jeans!(:anyway.yeahh.me val and be went back to the hospital to visit grandmama.val was asking the weirdest question omg.haha.well not much today.i just happened to make this short story long.

planning to skip dinner today (:

2004-02-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

sorry i couldnt update yesterday AGAIN.really really super uber busy.had school,then went for chapel practice.was late dammit.i think they got pretty pissed at us.haha.well yeaps.i had to leave early at 5 to rush home for tuition.and i was late for tuition so jo had to wait for me ): it was sucha rushy day.right after tuition,which ended at 630,i had to rush to take a shower.and then rush again to my grandmama's place.after that,not so much of a rush to tennis.after tennis,rush home.took a really quick shower.and rushed to complete my studying of history(which i dint end up doing cos i was too lazy.haha).well yeaps.during chapel practice,omg.emma was..haha i dont know.cant really describe her.but nonetheless,punky as usual(tho she denies it).me kerry rachel k. and doreen were there.hmm.we sounded too airy.and we dint have enough volume.plus,i dint know many songs like shout to the lord,which are really common.haha.well as steph said,i think some of us sounded pretty hollow.and that should include me.haha.i gtg to school REALLY early on monday morning.at 630 for last minute practice.ughh.

today,there was mass run in the morning.i was all the way infront.and then slowly i was lagging like 2 or 3 people behind.hahaha.but out of the blue,i had this really sudden burst of energy.and i just ran,as in LITERALLY ran,all the way back to school.and i came in first!whee.hahhaa.well it doesnt count anyway,cos they time the last person.hehe.the time table for today was pertty messed up.or isit just me?diint really know what was going on.after school i stayed back just to be nosy and extra,to see how the o level results went.mg did soooo well this year!hahahha.no kidding.the percentage of passes for most subjects were like 100%,and the percentage of distinctions were like 97% for 'A' maths.and A maths is the hardest,mind u.the percentage of all the others were really high as well.after school,i went home.played with my lil' homey.hahha then went to the hospital to visit my grandmama who just went thru an operation.yups.it was fine.i was there writing letters,eating LOTSA candies.haha gonna grow fatter than i already am.then after that went straight for dinner.so i was pretty much still in my school uniform..OOOOH feel so dirrtaeye.haha did that sound kinda..wrong?sorry.

on the 15th,it's someone's birthday.im not allowed to tell actually,but no one really cares,as rach khoo said.i wanted to tell you both about it.just dint know whether i should.not that i cant trust u guys or anything.just that i wasnt SUPPOSED to tell.but heck,i'll tell if u guys ask.on the 16th,it's chris's party!!hahahha my SHORTAEYYEEE.hehh.hahah.franchesker's soo crazy.haha.and joyy.omg..they're so funny.and michelle!uhh.i THINK it was michelle?haha.well her hair was in a mess and when i told her,she told me it's called STYLE!hahah.it's apparently her style,as she says.hmm.im done with my shoutouts.go checkem out.

shoutouts.dont bother going to my index page cos it's not even up yet.

2004-02-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

sorry i dint update yesterday.uhrm.nothing much yesterday.ohh there was mass skipping competition.and my class won.yayyy.hahaha.well im uploading pics now since steph's bugging the shit outta me.hahha.kiddingg.it's about time i uploaded anywayy.im always too lazy to upload.not my fault.and she wants me to upload ALL the pics of us,regardless of how we look."it's for memories.." she says.easy for u to say stephee,cos u look good in all the pics. (: hehh.studying history noww.THIRTY TWO pages dammit.page 31 to 62.does that add up to 32?dunno.haha.hmm..

highlight of yesterday : we got to use the new tennis courts!wheelalalala

hahaha.omg today we had this really spazzed aerobics thing.soooo retarded.hahha sheryl and i were laughing our way thru-out the thing.and these sec2s from 2s kept prompting us to do aerobics.hahhaha..i was laughing so hard.the guy was so daymn retarded.goodness.hahaha..well yeah.shant dwell on the topic.

YAYY.history test has been postponed to friday.whalallala.soo happy.cos im not done studying.i've chapel practice tmr.yeaps.

2004-02-23T16:03:00.000+08:00

home again.so happy cos my mom finally bought me a whole damnass big bag of...SKITTLES!yes.haha.last night..i err.went to the funeral,yes.it was so damn sad.i was nearly crying.i shant talk too much into it.i should be writing my history notes,and i havnt got much to say about today.except that i was asked to stay back an extra half an hour by beulah,to practice some stuffs for tmr.in the end,they dint wanna practice at all.gahh.so i just came home and everything.nothing much since it's so early.only 10 people online.there's no one to taaaalllkkk to.yeaapps.

2004-02-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

in the lab now.blah.we were all on the internet cos mrs sim was either away,or not looking.then she walked down and we all closed our windows,except poor cheryl.mrs sim caught her and gave her a demerit point.UGH.mrs sim's sucha bitch man.we all hate her.and she goes "anyone else i catch using the internet,im gonna give u a demerit point." well EXCUSE ME,are u gonna give the whole class a demerit point each?" the whole class was using the internet for other purposes instead of using it to do our science.i find it really unfair to cheryl.fucking bitchh la.

2004-02-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

beautiful bright day,ugly dull night
this post is meant for yesterday,just that it was too late so i couldnt update last night.yesterday..it was such a beautiful bright day..everything went well.i was at acjc and everything.everything went smoothly.then night came.we were in the car,on our way to oasis for dinner.then came the very phone call to my mom.suddenly my mom just started gasping really loudly in horror.he'd just passed away about an hour and a half ago.i was shocked beyond words.i was devoid of all feelings for awhile cos i was too shocked.it just came so quickly.it hit me so suddenly.a few seconds later,i snapped back to reality.it was true.it had happened.i couldnt believe it.sadness overwhelmed me.i wanted so much to cry,but i didnt.it was just so sad.it was so unexpected.i want to go to his funeral,and i asked my parents.they're deciding on it cos it's not easy for someone my age to see a dead body.at first they thought it was held at singapore casket.but today they realise it's not,and it's being held in their house.i really hope i can go.may he rest in peace.

2004-02-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

i just got back from acjc.hahah..as quoted from be,"fun-fairs are the gayest things ever." not as in literally 'homosexual' kinda gay.haha.it's an inside family thing.humdeedoom.most of the time we were there,we were looking for food to eat.hmm.k.

this morning was the auditions.it was soo damn scary.haha really nerve wrecking.there was acting and singing.no dancing.kerry sang "16 going on 17", i sang "hopelessly devoted to you".kerry was so good.haha she added really funny actions to it so it'll give the song more vibe and everything.sonya was really awesome,pity she forgot her words.she had sucha good voice.haha.sarah b's was good too.in the end she let sonya and sarah do scales.shannon was late.she was lucky the yubeng dood or whatever his name is wasnt ready otherwise she had to forfeit the auditions,which would be a real pity cos she was really good as well.she sang "dont cry for me argentina" which i dint know was from a musical.haha.sonya sang "reflection".dint know that was from a musical as well.hehe.i suck.after the auditions,kerry's dad picked us up.had a really cool conversation with sarah b about my *ahem* cousin.haha.-shhhh-went to kerry's place for a short while to change and everything.saw emma as well.haha she dyed her hair back to dark red.she's seriously sucha punker(yesyes kerry i know i've said that many times).hmm..changed out of mg uniform,hopped into the car,and before long,we were at ACJC dover road north buona vista.is that quite precise?hahahhahah dunno.feeling all weird-ish today.

found mandy,steph,hannah and jia.whee.but after awhile we lost steph.then later lost hannah.so me kerry and mandy went walking around,trying to look for them.had cotton candy,rosti(weird),and other stuffs.after that we really couldnt find them.met so many people there.haha.sarah b,denise,katie,sharifah,JON WONG(haha.kerry got super hyper),rachel khoo,cheryl lau,juliana,krystal,huron(and his friend),tony..aiyahh.and many others.cant remember who.uhmm.vicky was there too but i dint see her.im so glad that HE wasnt there in the end.joyy.we went searching for steph and hannah,even tried calling steph.finally decided to give up in the end.then be called me telling me she was outside and wanted me to go get her cos she was gonna get lost.hahahhahha..she was with val and christina.well more like with christina cos when i went to the entrance to find her i dint know where val was.yeaps.so we just hung out with mandy and kerry for awhile.christina had like 200 bucks worth of coupons dude.haha..i only had 30 free ones.gave 10 bucks worth to shar cos she asked me for it,and it was free.(thanks jia!)haha i dont even know what's for homework.hmm..lk was supposed to be there but she dint go in the end cos it was too late after her tuition.

we went to the imperial tomb.was shitass scary.seriously.especially at the first and last part.u wouldnt know what i mean unless u were there.and someone grabbed chris's foot.haha.and she screamed.kerry was so freaked out that she kept whining about wanting to get out of the place.i thought she was about to cry(sorry kerry).and she was almost shouting "i wanna get out!i really wanna get out!im too scared!!please.let me go out." sounded really tragic :S and she kept holding on to be.haha.and I THINK it was be who said "okay kerry.just rest your head on my shoulder k?" haha.i think that's what she said.couldnt really hear well.she sounded really comforting tho (: thumbs up for you be,if that was really u who said that.haha.omgomgomg hahhahahhahahahhaha and mandy was like,"shut up kerry.just SHUTUP." but kerry still continued,so mandy was like "KERRY SHUT UPPPP OKAY?!!" ahhaha.was really funny.she repeated it sooo many times.actually,while queuing up to go into the imperial tomb,i saw juli.asked who she was with,and she was looking for her cousin.whalala.omgomg this lady in front of us.she had the (sad to say) most deformed toe i've ever seen.not TOES. just toe.cos it was just the big toe.eww.we all started laughing cos it was so disgusting.ohhh and there was this water cooler in front of be,and the lady was in front of her.hahhahahaahhaha and be accidentally leaned her albow against the button to press for water to come out,and the water shot out on the lady.badbadbad.hahaha.sooo amusing.we were laughing so much.

well we ate alot.i finally got the opportunity to get my acjc shirt.haha.like bebe said,poseur.not my fault.i thought it was nice.then kerry wanted to buy the funorama shirt as well.later on steph and mandy came and they bought funorama shirts too.hahaha.im the most poseur one.but the shirt was nice.i wanted to get the polo one but i ran out of coupons.hahahha.be was hurrying me cos she was feeling rather dehydrated.after i got my shirt *beams* we went to the scones cafe which smelt pretty bad.mandy dropped steph home,and steph had to go to sentosa.haha.despite its bad smell,the drinks at scones cafe werent too bad.tho kerry highly suspected the sausage was uncooked.haha cos it was pinkish.later be's mom picked us up and dropped me home.haha.so kerry left to get her rosti.

well im back home.going for dinner tonight.whalalla.posted a long entry i think.i noticed that everyone's entries are really shawwwt.they dont post much.i think it's cos im just longwinded,cos i dwell over the same topic for a long time.hahha.not my fault.

2004-02-20T16:21:00.000+08:00

sorry dint blog yesterday.was too busy..im too damn busy lately.hmm..writing history notes now.it's called multitasking,once again.acjc funorama tmr.probably gonna go with kerry after our auditions.yesterday was swimming heats.50m breaststroke,and 4X50 relay.yeaps.jackson dint win unfortunately.but we dint get last either.so that's still cool.im badly sunburnt.gahhh..wtf.on tuesday during my 50 free,i borrowed huijun's sunblock and it wasnt that sultry and the sun wasnt as glaring.yesterday,it was sooo shitass hot and i dint put on any sunblock.dont remind me how stupid i am.went home BADLY burnt..and white as mandy already is,she was burnt PINK.haha.sooo cuute.my body's of two different tans.the 'swimsuit' covered part was still as white as ever like it's always been,but the rest of my body including my face was BURNT.blehh.going acjc funorama tmr.oh god.HE is going to be there.what does HE have to do with acjc funfair anyway?sher's my new husband.whee.since i found out steph cheated on mee??HMPF.she ALMOST got married to bev yesterday.it's so pms-ish.i heard miss wee's gonna play guitar for next week's chapel.coolies.

i changed my tagboard to flooble chatterbox.i think it's alot better cos u can type alot more words,and u can swear on it too.(hannah are u reading this?)haha.yeaps.my body hurts so much.eekks.today sucked.dint have my history workbook due to alot of confusion.got everything mixed up.left BOTH geog books at home as well.i think i got a demerit point.no big shit la.HEEHAWWW

2004-02-18T15:04:00.000+08:00

hey well im back from school.eating skittles now (: cos the kind soul fanglin bought a pack for me.whee!hmm..today,school pretty much sucked.unlike yesterday which was a pretty good day,today has been just the opposite.i hate mrs sim.uhh..so does everyone else..what can i say..?yeapieedooos.haha sher was telling me how much she HATES mrs sim.she emphasized the fact that she HATES.not just "dont like" or "dislike very much".she JUST hates her.hahhaa..well i got into trouble from the bitch today,cos she asked us all to go to the front of class with our books,and i was tying my hair.she scolded me for that..WELL EXCUSE ME BITCH,it was messy?isnt it just correct to be retie your hair when it's gone all wrong already?whatever.well i just felt today dint go too well.especially when i was so tired.got a lil shut eye from music class la.but that always happens anywayy..u could just go to sleep and miss tsien wouldnt even notice.mooohahhaa.in english class,mrs lim thought I dint hand in my comprehension.she made me go search for it..in the end,when yating was giving out the comprehensions,yating found mine and put it on my desk.which shows that mrs lim was in the wrong..ahh whatever.another factor to add to the fact that school today wasnt too splendid,is that i got 8 out of 15 questions wrong for math.i wouldnt care much,really,if those sums werent so long and that i spent a shitass long time working on it?(um.not really.hah)but whatever the case,it still sucked.im at the crescent girls' school website now,and i find it not very appealing.maybe im being bias..whatever.ohh nvm.hmm..after school i dropped dawn off at the busstop near mobil.then HOME!

u know what?despite it being not a good day,i somehow feel particularly happy today.like,not pissy at all.i feel really carefree and everything.i think im just weird.but whatever itis,i hope nothing's gonna spoil my mood for today.hope the rest of the day goes well.sighh 2nd auditions this sat.wish my luck yeah?*crossfingers* all the best to those who're auditioning as well.mUAHH..

2004-02-17T16:29:00.000+08:00

back from swimming..haha i pontanged(new word!whee.) tennis today.haha..oh wells.went for swimming.it was ~~bad~~.i tell u,BAD.50m freestyle.and i got 2nd last or last..haha.and sujin or however u spell her name,was preparing to dive,but she accidentally fell into the pool.hahha it was soo damn funny.sher was soo good.before our events started,dawn and i were trying to learn how to dive.haha..in the end we dived from the small block.still sucked tho.after the whole thing,danny and lucius called me to ask where i was.but they dint meet me in the end cos they had to leave.whalallala..have swimming again this thurs.breaststroke.really ~~screwed~~ this time.haha.

after swimming,dawn and i hung out for awhile.wasnt really hanging out la..sher was soo fucking good.haha her diving's damn style.hmm..after that,dawn and i took a bus back to mg.i was contemplating whether or not to go for tennis.was kinda indecisive.haha..cos at first i thought the swimming would end really late.so i dint bring my tennis racquet and pe attire.borrowed kailin's pe attire first.and wore my ltd too shorts.hahha..at least it was navy blue+yellow.so i guess it wasnt too bad.haha still had the knot sher tied for me(during camp)at the back of my swimsuit =P.at first i decided to play tennis.so dawn we'd take 74 to mg and then 67 over to my place to get my stuffs.but on the bus,i was about to fall asleep.hahah..so i decided not to play tennis.dint really matter much cos it was just a waste of time.back at mg,i was waiting for the driver.so steph and i went to play squash(i borrowed dawn's then later on zhijing's squash racquet).steph and i were having a game and..well surprise surprise!i could play squash!haha..right steph?im serious.i could playy.whahahha..tho i lost to steph a couple of times.HEY i dont know how to play squash so it was a pretty good start (: really funny.when i used dawn's racquet i accidentally whacked her racquet into the pillar while trying to catch one ball..haha SORRY DAWWWWWWWNNNNNNNN!!muahahah.later hannah insisted she wanted to try cos she's never played before.HMPF.nah im kidding.well it was funny to watch her play as well cos she couldnt really play.isnt it so fun to play squash especially when u dont even know how to play at all?yeapps.well later i had to go cos the driver was at mg already.when i returned zhijing her racquet,she was like "gosh you're sweating sooo much already after playing for such a short while??!" hahha..i was wearing FOUR fucking layers maann.uhm.one of which i shant mention cos it's kinda personal..haha.then my swimming suit.on top of it was my pinafore,and on top of the pinafore was my shirt.hehehhe..

..well im back home now!

hermx..ohhh yeahh.im so happpyyy!!whahahha..i got into the 2nd round of auditions for the musical!whalalalla..well see,last sat i went for the auditions in school for singing acting and dancing.and i got into teh SECOND ROUND!whee..haha.i'll be really realistic here.as much as i hope to get into the actual musical,i might not.but i'll be satisfied even if i dont,cos i already got into the second round.and that's good too (: there're so many people who can sing MUUUCHHH better than me.definitely.do i get a good amen to that?people like rachel khoo,dawn,sylvia..SHIT SO MANY PEOPLE!how could they not have gotten in?i totally screwed up the song.the acting was cool.and the dance i screwed up too cos i was late so i couldnt really catch the steps.i was whining about it to dawn just now.she was pretty upset about it but she took it well..haha.love ya dawnchikk.i like her name..dawn chik. dawn chik.dawn chik.whahahah..weell..as i was saying,i was whining about it.and dawn thinks i got in cos of dancing and acting.could be possible i guess.sighh so i'll be meeting them at acjc after the auditions this saturday.blahh.and i gotta choose a song from a musical.gonna ask my mom..haha HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT SONGS FROM MUSICALS????!!arghhs.kerry's sending me a song now for me to listen.hehhh.thanks kerryy..

hmm..gonna have tuition later.my blog entries are getting shorter.reasons could be that im getting less long winded,which is good,OR,there's been less excitement in my life.whee.):

2004-02-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

today was cool.well it wasnt really.cme project's due this friday,and i havnt even gotten my notes written yet.blahh.today's service was loads better than last weeks.at least today's talk made sense.yeaps.the songs werent too exciting,except for the beats of the first one,tho the song wasnt too exciting either.but whatever itis,we're still worshipping god.and that's all that matters (:

had laoshi's tuition today.and once again,i forgot to bring my kebens home.so she got pissed again as usual..haa.tmr there's swimming heats at acsi.im fucking scared.haha cos i suck so bad at swimming.blurgh.have a good dayy.bye.

2004-02-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

I didn't notice
But I didn't care
I tried being honest
But that lead me nowhere
I watched the station
Saw the bus pulling through
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home

Did I make you nervous?
Did I ask for too much?
Was I not deserving one second of your touch?

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home

What would you do if I could have you?
Oh if I could
I'd let you feel everything I'm thinking
Wouldn't that be nice?

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you

2004-02-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

im gonna make a long story short here.k?so back to mtv asia awards.i'll stop telling u HOW so very pretty denise keller was.haha yeaps.her website's so cool btw.whalalaa.just finished dinner.had fondue.well after the maa's,we were just hanging around for awhile.later be tits charmaine and couple more friends decided to go to macs to eat.meL's friends wanted to go newton to eat roti prata.hahha.anyhoo,gonna give out valentines at school tmr.sorry for being so late ya'll.

hmm..before the awards,i went to school.well the singing was freaky.the acting part was fun.and the dancing part was soo good,despite the fact that i really screwed up.yupz.after that went to iss to meet meL and be.im off to completing my shoutouts now.bye.

2004-02-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

mtv asia awards![denise keller's soooo pretty..:)]
hahhaa.im not les or anything.she just looked soo fucking pretty.hahaa.and she was really nice too,when i met her.heh heh.back from maa's.hahhaha it was sooo fucking good.it probably wouldnt be as good if i had seating tickets.hahhaa.wellwell that's cos i had standing tickets!woot.and i was being the bitch there by pushing and shoving.got all the way to the front in the end..muahhaha.saw everyone upclose.and people fainted.so fucking scary.plus there was these people way bitchier than me.cheryl and amanda was with me cos val meL jeannine claire and jaz wanted to go to the bec cos they dint wanna squeeze.hahaha..and there were these people who were bitching about and SO fucking fierce man.like they were superior to everyone else or something.cheryl and i kept laughing man..cheryl has the cutest dimples ever.

let's see,on to the show.stacie orrico performed,soo good.she has sucha good voice.sugababes performed as well.there were a couple of others which i wasnt familiar with cos they were of other nationalities.the performances were really rowdy,but what can u expect man??it's a PARTAEEYEEE!!yeaps.hehhehe.i just pushed and pushed.cool feel the body's against me,all sweaty and disgusting.everytime i got a space,i'll pull her and amanda in front.hahhaa.and there were these people who got so pissed at us.weeelll..black eyed peas performed,tho we dint manage to catch it cos it was towards the end when we were feeling so fucking dehydrated and tired.no dinner summooree.when i wanted to leave the damn place,i realised meL nat and jaz'd left alreadyy.hahahah so i had to walk out on my own damnshit.well then went to meet them.but meL and jaz were too damn lazy to even go find food or drinks to buy.so i dragged nat along(since she was the only none lazy one),cos she was willing too.well jaz felt bad for making us go cos we were gonna get drinks for them too,while they just sat on the stairs.but meL was like who cares im too damn lazy.hahhaha.biitcchhh la.oh wells.so me and nat went to get the drinks.we went there,but it was SOLD OUT!we only found a vending machine.so we decided to walk to leisure park to get drinks.found a place,which was smelly.with a small smelly bowling alley,and smelly cafeteria.nastyness.even the straw felt dirty.but i guess it was just all in my head.mmhmm.after the show,everyone came out.met charmaine FINALLY.haha.well at least i know what she looks like now.i hate my fucking driver.-ugghhhs-and my fucking mom and my MOTHERFUCKING SON OF A BITCHHH DADDD.i hate himhatehimhatehim.i hate him ever sooo muuchh.u know what?cos of him,i cant complete my entry.im never gonna live in peace with himm.

i always have to go away from something cos of HIM.who else but HIM?he makes my life miserable.he thinks he's the one making my life beautiful.he thinks he's the one who can make my life the best thing ever.but HE's actually the one ruining it all.HE's the one robbing my life away.i dont hate my mom.k?i dont.i just sad that cos i was pissed.but i dont.i understand that she comes in and makes me do something cos of HIM.im supposed to be offline already.but u know what?i just fucking despise him.im sorry if im cursing so muchh and being so fucking vulgar.just cant help it.it's my form of venting my anger.my form of putting it out.i only do that when im SO pissed.like now.im not pissed just cos he doesnt lemme complete a damn blog entry.that'll just be really unreasonable and sensitive.there're more reasons behind me being pissed,than just that.whata fucker.

2004-02-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

MTV ASIA AWARDS TOMORROWWW!!
oh fine.it's not big deal.it's just the asia awards.not like it's vma's or anything right?but oh wells.pretty difficult to get the tickets this year so i guess it's cool.after school tmr gotta go meet bebe somewherree..haha.then we'll go together.im gonna do shoutouts for everyone now.well im gonna start now.hahah..never know when i'll end.anyhoo,off to shoutouts now.bye.

2004-02-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day!hahhaa.k fine.it aint valentines day,but it sure feels like.got valentines todayy..whee.a rose,3 stalks of pink and white flowers which are really prettyfuuullll..and.uhh.chocolates.hehehhe.so shweet.and hannah finally returned my jt tape.hehe.and i was soooo fulfilled last night,cos i FINALLY went to play tennis!woot.hehe.nickoo just called me.nicholas mccurdyyyyyyy..havnt talked to him in ages.hah.anyway,back to tennis.well i think i hit away all my PMS!hehh.cos when i dint get to play for the past week,i was pmsing.whalalallallaa.ohh and steph,i finally found the letter i wrote to u.haa.

okayy well today dint start off too good.and i really mean it.okay.first,i was soo late for school.but cool,cos i found flowers and chocolate on my desk!hehe.sweet.during assembly,suddenly this splat of birdshit just DROPPED on my head.as in,the side of my hair and everything.ewww i was so disgusted.fucking nastyyy.and then beulah started laughing from behind.haha..while everyone was supposed to be singing the national anthem and sch song..and then i told fanglin who was infront of me,and she started laughing too.hahha i was whining and laughing.and my face was just screwed up cos i was so damn disgusted.and sher was laughing too..godd.so later they gave me tissue and sher helped me wipe.haha.she's so nicee.hahahhahhaa..later,went up to class and smsed my mom*shhhh* and told her about the shit.and guess what she said?sooo mean.she said "lucky day".HMPF.who's going acjc???hahaa.ohh shit.something bad just happened to someone.something i shant mention.well later on,there was computer.and i was late for class.hahaa.then just now,i forgot to tell the driver that i finish school at 205 today.so he came at 135.but i was still let out later than 205 anywayy.cos i had to stay back for swimming briefing,and then later go pump up my balloons cos it was too crowded during recess.so by the time i got out of school,into the car,it was already 236.and i had to go pick meL up cos otherwise he'll be late to pick her up.dint see be today cos she had to stay back for funfriday.hahahhaa.well then..yeaps.had lunch.and all.

hahhaa this is SO weird.i just taggedd miss wee's blog,and im not even her student.JULIANA,i expect my letter by MONDAY.hahhaa..does that sound like an order or something?can anyone tell me whether they actually DO check out the really weird forum thing that they have on that website?the one they gave in school.well maybe it aint that weird cos it isnt all that educational.it's just about keeping yourself away from dangerous internet people.and..i dunno.it's..silly.haa.despite being out of nanyang,i still think nanyang sucks.hahhaa.well bye.

2004-02-12T16:19:00.000+08:00

i was watching american idol last night,it was pretty good.haha..some of them had reallyreally powerful voices.hmm.yeaps.still owe people letters..oh joy *rolls eyes* haha.fanggg,u stupidd duckk.hahhaha.im on the phone with hannah now.hehhehe..yeaps.and she's making a blend of our photos.hahaa.as in,alot of us or soemthing like thtat.or . uhrms.i dunno.hee.steph me and her.yeaps.haha.and i just heard what a bitch u are.i cant fully agree,cos it'll be unfair as i dint witness it.but whatever itis,if it's true,you should try be a better person.k?i still love ya anyway.just..be less bitch-like.not bitchy,but bitchlike.today was alright.except that i had chinese test,which was sooo shitass hard.and steph told me that chinese in mg was easy.well it aint.it sucks.it's soo fukken hard.i dint do 1 question.and..the rest,i guessed.the comprehension was so shitass difficult.dint know what the words meant.well some of them.ohh wells.today's recess was really "uncommon".haha tuesday's common recess. i had juice,and chips.hehhe.small pack of chips.i love chips.potato chippieess!hahahh.but twisties are super good too.and they're corn mind u.ermx.taco chips are damndamn good.goshh.better shuttup.im getting fat.

tonight there's tennis.and i AM goinggg..arghs.i dont care im just going.i havnt played in ages,except for the shitty "training" in school.having tuition from 5 to 7pm,having tennis at 8.and IM GOING.if i dont go,i'll be pmsing real bad.i wont sleep til 5am,and i'll bring the house down.so let me go for tennis,and u'll be safe.i promise.ladeedoooo.i bought iris a balloon today,cos miss-demanding asked for a balloon and a flower.few days back,i told her that i ordered a daisy for her."I WANT A BALLOON TOO!" oh.fine.so i bought her a balloon today.and what did she say?"whyy so smaaalll??" hmpf.not even a THANK YOU?then after that,iris,krystal and genia wanted to go for lunch.they were staying back for track tryouts.see?after i give her the balloon then she walks away.hahahhaha.well that's iris.what can i say?i love her for that.hehhehhe.so *hug!* and she walked away.whalalallaa.ohh i havnt found out what auroras are.haha it's pw.eekks.hmm..i'll be getting maltesers for fang,rach loh and beulah.hahhaa.well HEY,they're getting me skittles and juice!hahhaha.i'll give ya something in return as long as u give me skittles+juice.heh heh.

hannah,let me REPEAT.i know you're not referring to me.i just wanna let u know the stuffs.hahaha.

i wont look sad for u.
i'll look happy for u.
i'll say i love u,and mean it.
i wont say it when im pissed.
i'll say it when you're pissed.
u dont have to trust me,
but i trust u.
i wont look sympathetic,
cos yer too damn cool to even be pathetic.
i wont pretend like i forgot whatever u said to me.
i'll write it down in my heart,and shut up.
i'll let u know who i really am,anytime.
i wont pull u up when u fall,
cos god will do that.
i'll wait for u to get up,
and hold on to u forever.

k that WAS NOT a poem.i just wrote it that way.but it aint a poem.and hannah,i love ya.*muahh*

2004-02-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

heloos.just finished tuition.laoshi's so boring.argghss.and MISS JULIANA has not replied my letter,and it's already been more than a week!humpfs.ohh i finished my letter to jiaen.hehehe so proud of myself!whalalalalala..julia still owes me a letter.so many people owe me letters!well not really.haha i owe people more letters than they owe me.ahh shuttup.excuse me juli,u have the time to blog and dont have the time to write me my LETTER?blah.*pokes u*im blog hopping now.im blog-hopping now,blogging,and chatting.while hannah seems like she's daoing me,in actual fact,she's actually blogging.so she sounds all dao-ish.now i know what steph means by hannah's not very good at multitasking?

well today,me,fanglin,rach loh,and sheryl were being really spasticated in class.haha.im like papa bear,sheryl's the mom something,fang and rach were the ducks.and erica was a..PIGG??haha.so stupid mans.AHHH!godd.james's such an ass.im reading be's blog,and he thought i was fucking TEN YEARS OLD!first person to ever say that man.that's so stupid.mark thought i was 15..hahahhaha.im gonna whack james the next time i see him.but it's a sure-lose battle for me.cos he just gimme a punch,and my teeth'll all be knocked out.fucking bastard.=P

now melly is telling me about how they were talking about it.they're evil people.*stick my finger up your pruney ass!*and he thought be's 18.haha.mark thought be's 16.me 15.and i dunno about mel la.but he obviously knows she's 15 cos he attended her birthday party.haha.min's being an ass now anyway.fuck her.

finished the stupid diagnostic test on heymath! stupid shit.it's some stupid online assignment that takes up some percentage i think.blehx.ahh wells.im gonna go watch american idol now.hehehe..bye!

FUCKER

2004-02-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

hihi.backk from school since 215pm.my mom's sucha liar.she said she'll be back home to have lunchh,but where was she when i came back?not that i crave her presence of anything.cos it's all the more better that she aint home.just couldnt stand the fact that she's sucha liar.she left jjust cos i came home late.how'd u like that?hmpf.i still have soo many letters to reply.cos i got more yesterday.hehe.keep them coming inn!!well i went to sleep in my bro's room.on his small bed(but big for him).with him on it.hmm..suddenly,i just thought of this.haha.should i create a blog for my bro?then i can write AS him.haha.like "i cried today cos my dad was being an ass."sounds good?and i'll keep the archives.so maybe next time he could relate to it or something.or maybe just ~~laugh~~ at it.heh.fuck i've got a chinese test tmr and i think im gonna fail.cos i havnt been paying any attention in laoshi's class.well i seldom do actually.hehe.blahhs.and why is everyone getting prank calls lately?haha.maybe they're not intentional pranks.so we'll just call them..err..spasticated unknown people calls(s.u.p.c.).haha.and im reading the tags on be's blog,it's so funny cos they're tagging about their supc.hahaha.it's so..stupid.someone's impersonating me on morgan's blog.retarded.blehh.whalalalala.genia's all about missing 6.3..cos 6.3's so cool.ohhhh..who's getting me valentine's day gifts?haha.i want skittles+lotsalotsa JUICE!and skittles rock.dont diss it.o0o0o0o..haha this morning i went to steph's class,went up to her,and said "steph,everytime i look at u,baby i see something new.." haha.then i forgot the words.and mildred was like,whadya see?a pimple?or whatt?haha.noo mildred,what i see is something new that takes me higher than before,makes me want her more(and more and more).whahaa.kk.im not les.im just so in love with herwhalalaladeedooo..chris thinks mandy's VERY HOT.hahha.he's such an ass.blahrs.stephhh,im gonna dao u.

2004-02-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

okay.finished math work.FINALLY.had tuition just now.uhm.i think the person at my tag-board who should be impersonating hannah,is very wrong about saying that i act like im christian.just cos i dont go to church,that doesnt mean that i cant worship god u know?cant wait to get my comp,then i can download psp and design my own templates more efficiently.rather than just using pictures from somewhere and do it.haha.cos using psp'll make it so much more better.jt's so hott!haha.eminem lost to him last night.of course,i love eminem too.his songs are really catchy.and jt wasnt pretending to rap with black eyed peas.do u understand?he's soooo damn hott.hehehe.and might i repeat,that pinky speaks really bad english?haha.serious."did u callED?"oh wells.not to make fun of her or anything.i gotta bitch her english since she often speaks bad of my mandarin.muahaha.

today's tennis was bad.yeaps.and hannah started daoing me at the end.haha.so much daoing today.hmpfs.im super bored.and i owe people letters.[yesyes stephee.dont rub it in..]she really cant stop being mean.she's tries so hard.goshh.oh weells.haha.finally got to know stef chua today.uh huh.our moms know each other or something.really weird,but yeah.i really dont know what to blog today,so if u noticed,what i've been typing's really been crapp.HEEHAWWWWW!whOoOwhoOwhOOOhOo0o0..
blah.im gonna stop here.

2004-02-10T19:08:00.001+08:00

hey.back from tennis.yeaps.at least i got to go this time.but it still sucked anyway.club training sucks.cos it aint even training.it's some stupid stuff that's hardly applies the skills of tennis.u know what?all club trainings suck.that's why i cant wait til june.cos that's when i'll be on the team.yayy.haha.hannah's daoing me.hmpfs.blahh.and guess what?just now.at the concourse,i felt really suffocated.u know why?cos the lady behind me,was my relative.eekks.jo's coming really late today cos her p6es are starting their supplementary classes in school.so damn.every tuesday,she can only come at 7.arghhhs.then i cant go play tennis!so fucked up.urhms.i think she's here?haha.jo,i mean.

2004-02-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

2004-02-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

i know im slow,cos im eating all the time yet i dont realise it.k.latest news:i just realised that im a big fan of skittles!hehe.u know the candy?yeaps.sure as hell,it's fattening.but oh wells.i love precious moments.hehehe.and my really old bible which still looks pretty good(my mom bought it for me when i was in preschool) is precious moments thingy too.hee.juiceeee.get me juiceee.i just realised i havnt completed lotsa stuffs.and merrill's being an ass.i bet he's lying.haha.nahh kidding.well apparently he went online before i came on.hmpfs.

lemme talk about chapel.dont worry,it'll be short.cos i cant remember what happened.i was nearly falling asleep.it was ever so boring.as i mentioned in my previous entry,she's some counsellor person.and starts talking about a whole shitload of crap which were hardly even relevant to the topic.the hell?she was supposed to talk about us being unique cos we were created in the image of god and things like that.and u know what she talked about?i dont know how she does it,but she can talk about things like birdflu,to cannibals.wtf?it completely doesnt revolve around the topic uniqueand as i ALSO mentioned in my other entry,i wanna have chapel service with the other levels.ohh.but what got me happy IN THE BEGINNING,when i walked into chapel,was the precious moments picture on the powerpoint.hehehe.so cuuute.my mom just came into my room and again,nagged about my ever-growing wardrobe of pants.hehehe.im eating skittles nowws.wheee!hahahaha.kinda highh noww.must've been the talk in chapel this morning.so bloody boring.

i just read hannah's blog,and..im raelly touched by it.what can i say?what she said,was really true.i think alot of things im gonna say'll come from her blog.it's something i can relate to.when we worship,the music doesnt really matter.i mean,someone like me who loves music so much.what matters is the words of the song.the lyrics.if u just sing,without feeling it.without understanding it.what's the point?then it's as if someone forced u into singing these songs.as if someone fored u to even WORSHIP god.i mean,im sure everyone enjoys good music.music that sounds good to their ears.but when it comes to worshipping god,why should we bother about the music?be it fast,or slow,at the end of the day,we all focus on ONE main thing.and that's to give god all the glory.and when people say "today's worship sucked" well that depends what they're talking about.i think today's worship sucked cos of the counsellor and her non-relevant talk.but nonetheless,i enjoyed the singing part.cos the songs had meaning in them.or u could have a huge mosh pit,electric guitars,percussions,and these guys singing.a whole band there to play christian songs.and this whole group moshingg(hehe i love moshing) like crazy.yet,no matter what,you're still tehre to give god all the glory.to praise god.or u could have this lil group with maybe a piano,and playing hymms.but whatever it may be,arent they still praising god?everyone wants to have fun.who would wanna be bored?but whatever or however the music may sound like,why dont we just sing with all our hearts.sing the words,and mean it.dont just sing it half-heartedly.that just kills the point.im no saint,k.im not sucking up to myself or anything,but i'd gladly sing the really so-u-all-may-call-it "boring" hymms,and i wouldnt feel like falling asleep.really.

hannah,your entry really touched me.thanks for posting such an ever so beautiful entry.it was really meaningful and sweet.let's hope people'll get our drift here.maybe they'll understand what it means by worshipping god whole-heartedly.right?

god bless.

2004-02-09T17:17:00.000+08:00

heloos.hardly anyone online right now.well there're SEVENTEEN, and i hardly talk to them.except elvina *beams*..hmmm.today chapel service was REALLY boring.i dont think i usually blog about chapel, but today was seriously ~~boring~~.the counsellor or something was talking to us.arghhs.i prefer chapel service with the upper sec cos it's so much better in more ways than one.seriously.and some ~~ass~~ thought i stole her word.HEEHAWWW.yeap.she thought i stole that word.which,i dint?oh fine.maybe it could be HER word(as she quoted),but it's probably among her friends.so this is MY word,which happened to pop into my head.that's how it all started man.even meL knows.and kerry's not updating at all.arghh.u know what?im gonna update later.kinda bored right now.i'll update while everyone else is.

2004-02-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

sighh just finished project.but not quite done with my chinese newspaper cutting.actually,not done at all.hahas.cos for one,i have no chinese newspaper,so i have to use the zhuo bao they give us in school.next,i dont understand anything written in there.so all i can do is just crap about.damn.seriously dunno whata write.hrmz..today was pretty fine.had -ughh- violin again this morning.im talking to iris right now.hehe.and she's asking me to talk to her.and she's talking about someone.haha.and her letter.and stuff like that.and that she's bored.and she's gotta study for home econs.hehe.okay not on the phone anymore.cos i told her im on the comp and i'll talk to her tmr.hehe.so yeap.back to blogging.goshh i was talking to danny just now.he fucking freaked me out.haha.so damn weird.today wasnt too exciting.im talking to her right now.she just started talking to me.kinda weird,but yeah.too weird actually.but fine.mark's birthdayy soon!haha.eekks.danny's just so weird.it's really creeping me out.ahh.hope our project's coming along fine.gotta print it out later.yeap.checking out blog layouts right now.trying to look for something different maybe.yeaps.checking out blogskins and diva designs.btw stephee and hannie,your candy's still with me[hey it rhymes..].well actually it's OUR candy.just that they can afford it much more than i can.my foot stinks right now.really random statement?but yeah.bought more fishes for my darling kai.hehe.so he can play with em.he's sooo cuuuuteee.i like monochrome stuffs.like monochrome layouts,monochrome pictures and images,shit like that.u know?monochrome videos...etc.hehe.dunno why.rachie just smsed me.she's bored.hahas.im kinda worried about our project.dunno why.hahas.it isnt really like me to be worried about things like school projects.but oh wells.just weird.diaryland's pretty neat.but i prefer blog,dunno why.ahh.rach just reminded me of juice.im craving for juice.but i cant drink,cos im still coughing.so i gotta drink warm water.feeling dehydrated right now.gasp.i know this entry's really crappy.but bear with me.or u could just not read at all.hehe.i'll stop here and spare u from boredom.

2004-02-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

okay time for my continuation .. haha . well i was first to be at heeren cos they were half an hour late ! and i thought i was late .. but when i got there , i was waiting .. well so i went to check out how the roadshow was coming along . it hadnt started yet cos it was only 1130 , but there were already people waiting there . all dressed in uglies. haha it was just so crazy. well FINALLY they came .. and so we were just standing around . but decided not to waste our times there .. so we went upstairs to annex and shit to take neoprints . which were really retarded. thenn .. we went to 77th street cos .. i dunno . steph wanted to go . hehe .. and they wanted to buy stuff . okay whatever cut the stupid elaborations. after neoprints we met be and hannah koh . and then we went to movenpick for lunch . so i called be and asked her whether she wanted to join us . while waiting for her , we ordered food .. and then .. omg we saw denise keller ! so i just walked up to her and asked her what time the road show started . she's so nice ! hahaha .. and then there were these two girls . a girl around my age , and a little girl . i dint realise it was patrina until be told me later on ! haha and she's 1 year younger. then later went to sit down.. and smsed be to tell her denise keller was there and that she was sitting on the table right next to ours (and she dint gimme credit for that). and called meL to tell her too . haha spread the word man.. me steph and hannah wanted to get her autograph , but we thought it'd be rude to ask her for it while she's eating . so we decided to wait for her to finish .. so we waited.. waited.. and waited . until we got too bored and steph wanted to go back to 77th street to buy her dunno what thing . so we got up , said bye to be and her friend , and then left . then we went to payy.. after we went out of the gate , bebe started calling out to us i think . so we turned around . and denise keller was paying ! so we decided to wait .. haha .. but steph passed bebe her tiny piece of paper and pen cos she asked be to help her get the autograph since she was still inside movenpick. but bebe took her paper and tore it in half and gave one half to herself and the other half to her friend . haha .. then she returned the pen .. so in the end hannah had to take her piece of paper and tore it into half for stephee . once denise keller was out , i ran up to her and asked her for her autograph.. haha did i mention that she's soo nice ?! and she gave each of us an autograph .. plus we had a lil conversation with her . haha fine fine no big deal .. but aiyahh .. nevermind . hahas ... goshh im viewing william hung's website now . so retarded .. haha k then after that we went back to the place the roadshow was being hosted , and it was packed ! all the people in front were so tall , and need i mention that the ground was a slope ? to make things worse , they were all holding up big ass banners so we couldnt even see much . all of us . me , be , her friend , hannah and steph . and there were these people in really crazy outfits ! goshh .. there were girls walking around in bikinis .. haha after awhile the three of us decided to leave cos it sucked for us as we couldnt see no shit . so we walked to cine cos hannah wanted to buy her famous amos cookies .. after that we walked back and we saw so many people walking off with their tickets .. shit man .. haha but they were all in crazy outfits , nonetheless. we decided to walk back out .. just then , i saw elvina .. haha she went there for the roadshow .. she was with her friend . and i told her she wouldnt get the tickets . haha but she still went in anyway . and cos we dint go to 77th street to get steph's stuff after lunch , we had to go back there . hannah saw this playboy necklace so she wanted to buy it .. haha i wanted it too .. so i got the cheaper one . it was black . and hannah got the silver one . so we put it on .. and in the end steph dint get what she wanted cos the top was too small . when she told me that , i was amazed . she's stick thin and that top's too small? haha just sounds wrong .. after thaat .. dunno what we did . but before taht , we went to converse or something . and so happens that steph wants to get the same shoe min wants . chuck taylors grey and pink . yeahh so nice right ? i want it too but min might get pissed cos she'll say she wantd the shoe first and all that shit. oh yes . later on we went to cine .. and anthony called steph or something cos he was at cine and he wanted to watch a movie with us cos he was bored and alone . haha sad .. but steph refused . we went to cine then saw be and her friend again .. haha .. i bought another stuffed dog from there . and my mom wanted to kill me .. hehe . later we sat down on the table next to my cuzzie .. and we ordered stuff . but tehy left cos they were done .. we shared ONE oreo cheese cake .. and hannah ate like 2 small bites of it , which steph and i highly suspect that it made her high . haha after that we left cos hannah had to leave for last minute church . steph and i had to go with her to top up her ezlink card .. on the way there , we saw andreas ! goshh .. he was with this guy and i dint even recognise him until hannah was like "isnt that andreas ?!" haha well we're not big fans of him or anything . in fact , he's an ass . right lk ? even his cousin says that .. haha then when we got there , i peeked into m.a.c. and saw ginger . rights. after that we walked all the way back to cine which was when steph and hannah left me all alone . haha so i called my mom.. and she said she'll go to heeren first. meanwhile , i just walked around cine . and then i bought this shirt which my mom isnt very fond of .. haha .. it prints in bold "IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY ATTITUDE.. DIAL 1800-EAT SHIT haha yeap . then later walked over to heeren to meet mom . and she brought kai along .. hehehe .. after that came home . ate dinner . and ..died. well was hoping to .. dunno just had one of my funny moods again .sucks tho.

kayy time to post about last night .

last night , mel be and i went out . we went to plaza sing to watch a movie . stupid meL dint tell me that we were going out until the last minute. so i had to hurry and get changed . then we went there . watched torque . shit so fucking good mannn !! hahaha .. the best movie ever .. well i know i've said that about many movies before but ..ahh whatever . ahha and im seriously bored la . anyway . that girll .. uhmm .. i forgot her name . haha well she's really chio . the other gothic girl was shitass cool , but evil . hmm then after teh movie we took an mrt to orchard . and then went to meet tits mia bryan douglas and people .. haha then later wtf they left to go to charmaine's place . so me and meL had to go home . bloody hell make us go all the way to forum from ps and then they left so we had to go home . [yes stephee im finishing up already!(hey that rhymes)].. hmm yeap . then we went home . and .. that's it .[no,i dint die,unfortunately.]

2004-02-07T20:07:00.000+08:00

went out today with darling stephee and hannah. yups.. we went to heeren cos we wanted to go for the mtv roadshow but when we went there , we realised that we had to dress up in some crazy outfits in order to be picked for the game. and obviously we werent looking crazy.. sigh yeaps. and the people at the front were so fucking tall and were holding up banners so we couldnt even see anything . but before that, we were at heeren. well I was at heeren first.
andd..shit i gtg . update later x)

2004-02-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

today sucked again. mom picked me up at 5pm from school.. plus im so pissed at hannah. see this hannah ? haha nah im kidding dearie. but your bus was SO late ! and u couldnt pass me the tapes . -arghhhs- . dont forget it on monday. i've waited more than a week already .. bleh* anyhoo .. i was dismissed so late today cos of some stupid excursion . wtf man .. we went to china town . and then we had to do a really weird report .. so muhhch . they're just unloading so much shit on us suddenly. what pleasure do they get from stressing us out ? ughh . i have so many projects to do . im not gonna mention how many or what they are , basically cos i cant remember . im just screwed . oh wells . im sooo glad it's a friday. whoohoo ! i wanna go mtv roadshow tmr .. hope i can get the tickets *crushfingers* and hope i can get for him too . so he'll buy me my converse shoes :)

after mom picked me , we went to wisma . uhm . so some mg girls with these ij girls , along with these three ac guys. and when i walked past , the guys started laughing and looking at me . wtf man .. dude im so happy .. my parents are out for dinnerrr !! woot . hahas .. k sorry . it's just so good when they go out for dinner. dont feel like eating dinner so early. and may i add that chinatown was just ~~freaky~~? i just realised a whole shitload of people added me on the heymath thingy . which .. is surprising that im actually at the site now . im disgusted at myself dude . but yeahh . there's this instant messaging thingy where u can add your list of friends. pretty fine . hahas . kayy i've decided to add people nows . really spastic, but i couldnt care less . actually i could . but ahh , fuckit. whoohoo ! i just added some people . hahahaha so funny . sorry i cant help laughing but this thing is just .. amusing . for no reason at all, i just think so . sorry if u dont get me . hehex. ally called me ! hehe deariee .. she asked me to help her check her email . that darling of mine never goes online cos she's too lazy [steph you're still the darlingest x)]..

i forgot to say that i got my geog test back today. and hist. test yesterday . did i say that before ? im not too sure , but doesnt matter i'll say it again . history was bad . i got 19/25 . hmmm , im pretty glad cos i expected lower. it was a pretty good score considered that i dint complete a 10 mark question , and a 2 mark word question . yups . i couldnt finish that stupid thing due to excess elaboration on the 10 mark question , and not knowing the 2 mark question . i mean , it was like "define the word anachronisms" something like that i think . but whatever . it was just spasticated . who the hell would know what it means ? dunno la . 2 people in my class got full marks for the hist. test . can u believe it ? eekks. such smart people . as for geog , i got 22/25 . not too bad i must say . im not sucking up to myself or anything but i really dont think 22 was that bad . considering that i did really last minute studying .. x) sheryl thinks her marks arent great . yet they were just so .. crazy . she beat me for both subjects , and she thinks it sucks . sheryl , are u degrading me or something ? nahh kidding . she's just studyoholic(if there's such a word..) she loves studying . dont know how she manages it , but im still thinking . im not getting too good on my song . wish me luck ya'll . i dont wanna do badly . hmms . kerry thinks that she wont get in cos we're all more chio than her , better than her , and that she sucks . i think she's wrong tho . let's all give her encouragement yahh ? cos i think she can do it . and if i can believe in her , then she should believe in herself too . so cheer her on kayy u all ?

anyway . gtg eat dinner now . had to go since just now actually .. but i wanted to blog first . see how devoted i am to my blog ? myass. yes . i know . not my fault whatt . see ya .

2004-02-05T16:02:00.000+08:00

im still missing u..

dint have the chance to blog yesterday .. cos it was a really busy and hectic dayy .. sigh . yeap . had chinese tuition at night .. before that i had to complete my -ugghh- work . then after tuition i had to complete ~~more~~ work .arghhs.i rushed to finish it up , cos i wanna watch [the really amusing] american idol . hehe. steph , im done with your letter.jiaen, im working on it ! uhh ..soon :S got loadsa letters to reply ! hehe .. im not boasting or anything .. x) im just amazingly boredd .. maybe i'll go write my letters soon . and see , steph . im updating . there's gonna be some gay dinner tonight .. cos it's the last day of cny . i still dont see what the big deal is anyway . so yeah . damn .. then im having tuition soon , which sucks too. freaks are cool . hannah, u must pass me the tapes! arghhh .. dont forget womann ..and i gotta pass nic the cds. hehe .. i'll get jo to pass it to her :) there's this korean dude talking to me . and im like , wtf . i dont know u ? anyway . i just blocked him .. annoying people . i'll be expecting jo anytime soon . so yups . im viewing someone's diary right now. someone's sister's diary .. uhh in which i dont know his sister? yups. i think i gtg soon . plus , i've got nothing to blog about . and.. i have something else to complain about.. tonight's tennis session is CANCELLED . u know why ? cos of the stupid cny DINNERRRR !! bloody hell. get lost.

2004-02-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

so pissed
im so pisseddd.. my fcuking mom dint lemme go for tennis "training" today in school cos im ~~sick~~ . WTF . im not dying or anything and yeah i sure as hell know that she's concerned and everything but fuck off man , i can breathe fer fuck's sake . i wont diee .. after all , im almost recovered . arrghhh .. and geezes , the so-they-call-it "training" isnt even vigorous or anything . it's like simple shit for beginners . we hardly even PLAY . i can hardly even sweat it out during that lameass "training" . and liankim made me so sad today . :( see that lk ? it's all your fault . u just had to quit tennis . being bad enough as itis already , u had to quit . cant u just persevere , til we start out school team training in june ?? stupid donkeyy .. lol . kidding . i'll always love ya babeehh and u know it ! sighh yes . and i even brought my racquet to school , having high hopes that i could persuade my mom to change her mind . but noooo .. she was just so annoying n insisted that i go home straight away after tennis . fucking bitchh .. i even brought my pe uniformm .. arghhh .. and i gotta return mansi her pe uniform which i borrowed couple of days ago . still dont know what song to use for the musical :S

anyway , i'll blog later . kinda stoning a lil right now . too pissed to blog about good stuff too . later

2004-02-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

something i can relate to ..

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Couse I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Iím breaking the habit
Tonight

2004-02-02T11:52:00.000+08:00

expired.
my title ? k i'll enlighten u on it . last night , i came home with my parents and sister . went to the kitchen , and my mom pulled out a box of mini eclairs from the fridge . cos those are reallyreally extremely good . so she asked me to eat one . i ate one , and spat it out . it was expired. tasted all sour and extremely nastyy . this morning i asked for a glass of low fat milk . so she brought it up . as i brought it close to my nose , ready to drink it , it just smelt really disgusting and nasty . weird too . but i took a big sip anywayy .. goshh i spat it out into the sinkk . FUUUCCKKK . it was NASTY . nonetheless , it was expired . it tasted bitter and sour at the same time , with the essence of milk there . can u imagine that ? it's just .. -ughhh- disgusting.

my prediction for the day : shitty.
i'll elaborate further . today's gonna suck so much , cos i have TWO tuitions , and on the subjects i hate most , science and chinese . HOLY SHITTT . i just realised my math test is tmr .. shit im gonna call sheryl . whahahhahaahah im so happyyy !! cos .. it's changed to thursdayy .. woooott !! hurhurhurhur .. whalalalala .. have a good day . im going to reorder my links .

2004-02-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

back from dinner and eating skittles once again .. talking to steph , my darling husband now . haha and she's being pretty fine . telling me not to kiss any other girl ever again . goshhh im laughingg so damnn fcuking hard now cos everyone's asking me about my nick . okayy this is my nick : b e c .*?. :-=rock your body=-://ohh i've kissed many girls already . but you'll always be my one and only . hahahhahha so chris is like , "you scare me . you're a lesbian ?" haha then nathan from acsb was like "what's with your nick. it's damn gayy..." hahhaha omg im laughing so hard now im gonna fall overr .. hahahah .. and steph mentioned how hurt she is on her blog cos i kissed some girls but her . im so sowee steph i'll always love u you're my one and only , as mentioned in my nickname . hehehhe.. and i gave rach a pic to work on , and she thinks it's kinda sick cos she's never worked on something like it before . haha dont get the wrong idea it's not porn or nude . i love it that hannah's got everyone's links on her blog . well ALMOST everyone .. like , she has so many people dude .. so it's kinda good if u wanna go to a certain someone's blog , who knows hannah as well , cos all u have to do is go to han's blog and look for it . it'll be there . :) see this , hannah ? im sorta "promoting" your blog . sighh i've got science test on tuesday and i havnt even studied for it . how absolutely annoying itis , when you've got a test . ohh damn i just forgot to take my medicine .. haha retarded la . and rach , sincere thanks for helping me edit the pic ! muahh . u sweet thingg .. lol . hope u read this dearie . would people update their blogs more often please ? im getting bored with the same stuff . people like hannah , juliana , nick and many others . these are the peeps who hardly ever update , mind u . humoooomuumooauhauhm.. okay sorry . hehe . im getting highhhhhh ..

2004-02-01T18:23:00.000+08:00

im bored so i'll blog . im eating so much candy and other fattening stuff (speak of losing weight).. sigh .. im gonna name out the really photogenic people , just to rid myself of the bordom . alrighty . most photogenic people .. are ...(drumrolls) : steph , iris , rachel(lin) , nicholas(mccurdy) , calvin(ding) , valerie(ding) , beatrice(ding) , valerie(lange) ..err .. and many more . hahas .. just cos you're not named here , doesnt mean u look bad in pics . im just being an ass here by naming the people .. mufafa .. anyway .. im getting really frustrated here . im going for the gayass musical auditions , where u gotta sing , act and dance . big deal .. bloody list outside the damn teacher's staffroom with all the names down and i just HAD to have my name down gawddamit . arghhh .. korean barbeque dinner tonight .. good stuff dooduss .. anywayy .. yeap . plus , i've uploaded new pics on imagestation (yes yes , i know .. like FINALLY). so go check em out

2004-02-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

i was in a mood of criticism yesterday , when i was telling val how fat she is , and this and that .. haha . but i said it jokingly . not in a mean wayyy .. im still trying to figure out what juli's blog entry means .. the one with the poem . something about shirking albat . a really complicated poem which i wonder whether she penned it down by herself . but it's really good anyhow , and im not quite sure what it's about but it'll be good if she wrote it for herself to relate to . i wish i had that kinda talent .x) chris sent me a really nice msg last night , which i only received this morning cos i went to bed early last night .. boo :( . and rach , i've got a pic for u to edit .. hehee .. well u asked for one ! took my medicine , and not dying yet .

right off to my day , well it's only around noon . so there's not much .. except that these few days i've been made to wake up earlier than ever , in which this morning went that way too . i had to wake up at EIGHT this morning . i think i've mentioned that last night but .. yeah . went to eat breakfast . bak kut teh .. errr . yes that's what u call it . hahha true it's a weird ass name . but the food's good . it's like these pork ribs in funny soup thingys . errmm not very precise , detailed , nor appealing of a description .. but who cares ? i've got a mosquito bite on my upper thigh , close to my butt . uhmff . anyway .. came back , and watched the dvd my aunt passed to us .. haha it's called "a simple life" by paris hilton and nicole ritchie .. it isnt a movie or anything actually . it's just a recording of them leading a "simple" life in the country side for about a month or so . haha they were still themselves , not playing up any role of any person . so it was like , two rich ass girls dressed in christian dior outfits and expensive heels with like a shitload of bags , going to the country side . haha .. they had to surrender their cards , their case and everything . dood it was just funny they were such bimbos who dint know so much common things .. like walmart . paris was like "what's walmart ? do they sell wall stuff there ?" hahhahaha and everyone started laughing .. godd .. and they walked around in the SKIMPIEST things . i mean , people are cool with it in california .. but in the country side , they're rather particular so everyone was commenting on their outfits . goshhh .. i just thought it was so amusing and stupid but funny . and paris hilton's so fucking hott . and she's stick thin too .. hahaha .. well im done with the video .. i dont intend to discriminate her or anything .. she's cool .

whyy is NO ONE online ?? im bored shitless dude .. and whywhyWHY must my account be hacked ? so jaded , frustrated , it's all so complicated . fashion , no passion , surrounds me hmmm .. reminds me of a certain someone cos we both liked that song . i still like it la .. that's why i can remember it . i realised how long i havnt been updating my imagey . so i shall update it .. uhm soon . anyway .. im bored with myself now so have a good life .

2004-01-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

she looks like a flower but she stings like a bee !
im homeee !! and YES im aware that my title's the same as be's but you'll know why later . haha came back from iris's . went there before 5 , first to get there ! and (blehh) had to do se's art . haha .. her shtoopeed art workk . had to help and iris (!!) kept complaining that my prints were too ugly . humphhh .. so i had to make it better . and we were screaming the whole time hahaha .. then selene FINALLY came . and haha we were making so much noise . the 3 of us completed se's work half way , then went downstairs to eat . haha with hui er at the same time . and we were reminsing (however u spell it.) over ur kindergarden days . hahahha and how this girl called jane marie ng(or something like that) was SO annoying , and how we disliked her (yeap . all of us .). and then i said to her "jane , you're quite smelly............" hahahha and she started crying . and she complained to the teacher , which then got me into shit . yeah i know it was mean .. but DUDE ! she was sooo annoying . then we were looking at the pics of our maris stella classes . i looked like shit .. iris and selene just looked weird too . haha .. and there was this girl who looked like a barbie doll . and then i saw merrill's .. i could recognise him straight away . and i was like , EWWWW THAT'S DISGUSTTINNNGGG !! haha and iris started laughing so hard . soon genia came . and thenn hannah .. i forgot to bring my camera . but at least hannah brought hers ! haha .. we took retarded and *AHEMM* pics . haha finefine i'll tell ya .. hannah and i facing each other , lying on the bed , a kissing pose just that our lips were apart . selene and i did different poses of us pretending to kiss too . [note that those were just pretending shots .] then later me iris and selene .. iris in the middle , and me and selene kissing her by the cheek . haha real kisses but on the cheek only (sorry stephee!!) .. and iris was freaking out . and then selene in the center with iris and i kissing her at the cheeks (sorry again stephee!) . then it was my turn to be in the middle .. haha sorry again steph . my goshhh .. the last pic , hannah and i . we pulled down our tops slightly , as in , JUST below the shoulder . so it's like , we look topless if u dont see our clothes that were actually there . we were still all covered up of course .. above the chest . haha then iris took a pic of us . the UPPER portion . so it's like , u cant see the clothes were there .. we looked naked ! haha .. funny . hannah's gotta send the pic to us . pity tho , stephee dint come . cos iris forgot to invite her *screams* .. but oh wells . we love u steph *muahh* . ohh about my title . yup we were laughing over the american idol thingg .. the auditions . SO funny . like , she bangs she bangs , she moves she moves .. she looks like a flower but she stings like a bee ...." the auditions was just so shitass funny .daymn i gotta wake up SO damn early tomorrow . arghhh .. like , 8am . who the hell wakes up at 8am ??

2004-01-31T10:31:00.000+08:00

hurhur .. bloody joker at the tagboard , not to be bothered with . except contradicting their statements .feeling better this morning . slept early last night , so i woke up early . around dunno what time .. cant remember . but it was early .. 7+ i think . then just lay in bed half asleep with my eyes closed . so i think it was around NINE ? when i really woke up . cos my dad was on my bed checking his phone . wtf .. yeap . then he asked whether i wanted breakfast . "where?" "mcdonalds" "okayy.." hehehe .. so off to macs we went , with kai and tutinah . hotcakes with sausage meal .. yup . but .. again i couldnt finish the food . that's normal tho .. it's too much for me to finish . too filling . haha i just sent val the email genia sent me .. all the dogs init .. cos we're both dog lovers . dog-crazed since youngg .. haha and she was like "that's a shitload of dogs.." rights . okay maybe it isnt really funny . but it sounded funnyy .. im still sick . feeling better today tho .. loads better . my medicine .. im taking so much . they're like my drugs . panadols work better tho .. //time for me to shuttup// -.-

i dont know whyy .. isit cos i dont dare to anymore ? hurhurr . i dont mind anyone asking me what im talking about . as long as we're close kinda thingg .. but yeah . ughh i dont know where im heading to now so i wont carry on about it . i WAS going to , until i realise it's completely redundant , what i have to say .

2004-01-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

im bored so i'll blog again . this time , i'll try put my thoughts down . i was just soo cracked up THEN .. but now it's all gone . i failed . like chris said .. he said i'll fail to persuade him cos he's stubborn as hell . usually i wont take it too hard . actually , i dont even take it hard .. well that's normally .. and the person dissing me on my tagboard . i couldnt really care less . u know what ? all i do is contradict what they say . e.g. bec is les .. well NO . bec isnt les . bec's just bi . and who's to say anything ? just deal with that .. freak . well im not really bi . im just contradicting the person's words . and are u dissing me by saying im les ? so means being lesbo's not right ? hurhur . well i think not . i think whether you're lesbo or gay or a tranfestide .. or any other forms of heterosexuality . it's still the same . does that make u any different from anyone ? well yes . i AM speaking up for them . cos i think it's not right to take them as freaks . anyway .. yup . everywhere i turn , it's colorful . that's cos i live in a colorful world . colorful undies . colorful pictures . colorful smiles :) and expressions . colorful cups . colorful candy . colorful lights . colorful computer . colorful webpage . almost everything's colorful . yet i feel so dull and gray . am i growing old too quickly ? dont think so . that's not the point . whatever i feel is dark and gray . i dont wanna talk to anyone anymore . wasnt that the point i made online ? and in my previous blog entries ? being pissed at teh hacker was just an excuse ... i think . or maybe everything's just rolled in one . everything that SUCKS . but noooo .. im still talking . i think that's probably the only way to get by . im tired . cos im sickk . i just look around . everyone's happy .. i dont know . i just seem to feel sad . and getting sadder and sadder . i know life isnt supposed to be perfect . quoted from tracie's nickname "life is a journey that everyone takes" . that's true . and a JOURNEY has it's ups and downs . just like how life is .. but wouldnt it be so awesome if everything was cool , everything was fine ? i dont wanna talk to anyone on msn right now . i dont feel like it . i just wanna lay on my bed , and curl up . i just wanna hide away from it all , and be with god . to trust god . maybe that's what i should do right now . i wanna go church this sunday . im tired . i wish i could stay under my sheets forever . i wish god was with me now . he probably is .. so father , send some guidance from above . there's so much noise going on downstairs . everyone's just so happy .. then why am i not ? im happy with u guys tho . my friends . im so glad to be with u guys .. life has been going fine for me so far .. like , events and all . i may have had my many failures . but i managed to pick myself up again .. so easily . why am i not able to do it this time ? sure doesnt seem like it . why not let life be a dance floor . where u could dance your years thru .. without stopping . just dance and dance . with the drinks , where u could get higghhh .. and happy . forever . and when it's time to die , just let the dance floor shut down . let it all close . and let yourself collapse in the middle . shut your eyes , and never open it again . i think that'll be better than this life . but i know it'll be quite impossible . but god is with me thru this life .. he's there for me . he was the one who CREATED this life for me .. and it'll be what i'll stick by . i dont knoww .. im talking crap . laming aboutt .. i dont know what im saying . first i complain about life . then i talk about god . and in the end , i'll still stick by it . stick by this same old sucky life . well that's what i'll be doing then .. that's my life . and MY life SUCKS . im in an awesome school . i did well for psle cos i was lucky enough . but .. everything that happens to me , good , or bad . just seems to ruin my life .. one way or another . happiness for awhile .. then it just pushes me down..down..down . well i think i've put my thoughts down in words . finally . i dont know what im saying . my eyes are slits .. my brain's slowing down . i'll go curl up in my little world of darkness .. now .

2004-01-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

heyhey . well im eating right now . and i dont really have much of an appetite tho i took a shitload of food . my parents are having a dinner function downstairs now . all her friend people .. so there's like catering . i took so much food which i gotta force myself to eat . dont know why i took so much food tho .. let's see . a bowl of meesiam , 3 sticks of chicken satay , 3 sticks of (really yummy) grilled prawns , and a piece of beef wellington .im fat enough already . -uhhmph-

i lost my friends . the people who were closest to me .. yet i still cant figure out why . what i saw in them .. how could i ever think they were nice people when they were just pretentious ? i dunno . maybe im not good enough for them .. but they could at least just tell me . they dont have to pretend . so what is really going on ? i stopped . i stopped visiting their blogs . stopped tagging them . even tried to stop communicating with them . but today , i decided to pay morgan's blog a visit . someone's been impersonating me on her blog , and dissing her . now , i really couldnt be bothered to do that . yet morgan believes im the one dissing her . bloody flamers . i went back to nanyang cos i wanted to see them .. but .. who would have thought ..? im trying to carry on with life .. to be happy like how i was with them .. but i cant just do it with a snap of my fingers can i ? that wouldnt be right . im happy tho .. with my friends in school . they're so nicenicenicenicenicenice .. they're such nice people . [now im doing merrill a favour by trying to persuade chris to keep his sword from thailand ?? cos chris's gonna kill him for doing a certain something.] but still , i miss them . im trying not to . but i cant do it so easily .. gimme time .. once everything's settled , let's hope it'll be good .

finished my dinner . and happy now . not cos i finished dinner .. cos there are people cracking me up . im getting dizzy again .. wait lemme take my medicine . ahh im done with the medicine . nasty shit . anyway .. yeah dhini just cracks me up . and rach .. and chriss .. tho im getting kinda pissed at him now . cos he just.wont.let.go. kinda tired right now . going to iris's house tmr ..dont know what to wear !! im on the phone with iris nows ! luvv yaa .. haha

2004-01-30T16:20:00.000+08:00

im dizzy and dying . too dizzy .. my head's really spinning . plus , depression's really adding to the load . how messed , yeah ? but oh wells . pray that i die in my sleep or something ... muahahahahahaha

hate me . stab me . finally , kill me .

2004-01-30T16:07:00.000+08:00

today sucked too . im sick , and dying . my body's really hot (temperature hot).. had jackson meeting just noww .. wasnt supposed to scream cos of my really terrible sore throat and cough . but noooo , i just HAD to scream .. but hey , who's gonna stop me ? and mr ng was funny . he.still.owes.me.my.bag.of.chocolates. well he could at least JUST give it to me . im not gonna eat it .. im too fat . hannah wrote me a letter :) a short one only lahh . but still good .=P had my stupid geog and history test todayy .. which REALLY sucked big time . for geog , i dint know how to name the seas . i mean , i knew oceans and continents .. but UGHH . i dint know the seas .. well i named one "south china sea" which i believe i got it right . pretty good , cos i guessed the answer . unfortunately , the other one , i dint know what it was . so i made something up hoping it'll be cool . well it was a pretty stupid answer cos .. i dont know it's just weird . you'll probably start rolling over with laughter once i tell u about my really retarded answer . haha i put it as .. "black sea" hahaha retardded right ? and it was supposed to be "medittaranean sea" or something like that . someone's impersonating me on morgan's blog . wtf ? morgan , the person dissing u aint me . kayy ? alright . back to my so very fcuked up history . weeell , history was far more worse than geog . i totally screwed this one up .. the last question was TEN fucking marks and i dint fucking finish it . cos i dint have enough time .. then there was one question which you're supposed to write the meaning of the word . i still cant remember what that word was but it doesnt really matter . know whyy ? cos i left that question ~~blank~~ . great job huh ? sighh let's hope i dont fail cos im just gonna be screwed . as usual .. and stephee , how do u know about MERRILL ?! dood . i dont like himm .. he doesnt like me either . so how could u say we're married ?? we're just good friends . im married to u , and u only . now .. dont forget to get me my roses for valentine's dayy !! muahahaha .. i have a reallyreally terrible headachee .. im gonna just go to sleep later . more to the sucky day , read on .

mrs lim's gonna switch sheryl's and my places . u know why ? cos of that ms gan . i thought she was nice . but who would've knew , she was sucha bitch ? fine . maybe it's partly our fault . but STILL . okay . let's see .. she went to complain to our form teacher , that's mrs lim . cos we were really rude to her that day during lit class . we werent literally rude actually . we just gave her this dont-care attitude . which probably made her really pissed cos we talked to her in a really , not-very-nice manner . hahas .. it was fun anyhow , but she doesnt have to change out seats ! sighh .. ah well .

my headache's taking over me . getting dizzy noww .. ohh anyway i "met" a whole bunch of girls in the toilet . haha yes i know it's not a very appealing place but oh wells . anywayy .. dint really give a shit at first , except that this girl was like "dude im FUCKING COLLDDD" haha .. and i was like thinking "hello?u can be cold in a fucking toilet?" but of course i dint tell her that . just ignored them and went into the cubicle(heh) . that was when i heard one of them say something like "mia took it back" .. well dont ask me what they were talking about before that cos i dint really take notice . so once i walked out of the cubicle(hehh) , i asked whether they knew mia .. n they were like "yeah how do u know?" so i was like , "ohh cos i know her.." and they were like "how do u know her?!" and i was like , "she's my cousin's friend.." and they were like , "ohh who's your cousin?" all i said was "uhm . calvin ding ?" and they were like "CALVIN DINGG ?!" hahahha .. and i was like "yeahh haha why" and they were like "ohh ! haha he was mia's ~~censored~~ . haha yeahh .. and i was like "haha uhhmm YES i AM aware of that .." and they were like saying stuff .. and which i dont wanna say here . cos it's kinda redundant . asking me about how i know her and about themm .. then they said "ohh what's your name?" and i was like "rebecca" and they were like "rebecca DING?" and im like .. "nononoooo .. hahaha , cheong." and they were like "ohh haha okayy" and im like , yeahh okay i think i better go now .. and they were like , okay byee .. uhm yes . okay so byeee . well they were nice .. hahaha pretty fine . dint catch their names tho .. dint even ask . anyway .. my mind's spinning now . not cos of confusion and shit like that(all the depressing shit) , my mind's spinning cos im really dizzy due to my really bad headache and i think i've got fever too . but i dont intend to tell my mom .. heheh i've got medicine already .. mom took my last night . had abit of temperature there but wasnt too bad . going to iris's place tmr .. wooot !

2004-01-29T14:42:00.000+08:00

sighh i tried writing a poem about .. how im feeling right now . and i just couldnt get the words down .. they were all jumbled up in my mindd .. but i know i gotta think thru it and pen my thoughts down so it'll make myself feel better . so i'll try again later .. or should i just forget about it and keep all to myself ? well that saves alot of time yeahh .. i have a badass sore throat right now . woke up .. couldnt talk . went to school , my voice was better . loads better .. could talk normally .. must've been the singing i tried to do in the car .=P anyway .. yeah . and i just bought the mg ring binder cos i thought it looked good . it wasnt prettyful or anything .. it just .. uh . looked good ? yeap . oh wells . the entry i did before this , which .. u can see if u just scrolled down further , well yeahh .. i dunno . the last or last two paragraph(s) .. im still thinking thru it . i dont knoww .. im just so confused and shit i dont know what to do . all's a shithole .. and no one seems to understand . or even try to understand .. i dont expect anyone to do that tho .. im just stating . and .. yeah i am blogging . with worthless words . and my song lyrics for tits which im supposed to help write isnt coming along any goodd . im stuck where i stopped like two days ago .. i just cant seem to find the words . it's about teenage problems .. i can relate to that really well but somehow i cant find the words cos my mind's in a terrible mess which i cant sort out . i thought it was all over then , but now i realise it's not . and i doubt it would ever really be over . nahh it wontt . u know why ? cos it's my life . and it's probably meant to just suck . i mean , sure there are the joys of it too . my friends , the laughter .. but i think the pains overrule the joys . yup . fine i'll shuttup about the shit . i know no one really cares to know , but im just letting go . who's gonna stop me ? anywayy .. yeahh . my mind's just in another huge whirl for the day .

great day ahead . whoopee doo .. it's me against myself and good to know that no one bothers to interfere cos that's the way it should be ..

2004-01-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

today .. ~~sucked~~. after school, i joined iris for lunch before going to the concourse and wait for the bus, along with the bowling club and team members . i was supposed to be home by 5pm for tuition . so i finished at 430pm . and ying xin offered to drop me back at mg . she assured me her mom would be punctual but by the time she reached chevron , it was 5pm . and jo was at my place since 445pm . haha .. then by the time she dropped me back at mg it was 515pm . the driver was supposed to be waiting there for me .. so i ringed him . and guess what ? he was at heeren . doing what ? he was waiting for my mom ! can u believe it ? and i smsed my mom to tell her i finished at 445pm . so i ringed her .. she was with meL and she claimed that she dint receive my sms .. like wtf man . so i waited there for another 15 . sat on the steps of the concourse , and decided to ring jo . to uhhh ask how she is haha waiting for me at MY home . and she wanted to kill me .. haha i felt so bad . but she was still nice anyway . then so by the time i got back , it was like 545pm . so in total she's been waiting for me for an hour .. and i've got history and geog test on friday ! so she went thru geog stuffs with me .. im so dumb . haha i sucked .. BAD . anyway . speak of bowling .. sighh the club training kinda sucked . im only going for the trial and i hope i'll come to like it better . the session was really boring . i was in the beginner's place cos im sec1 . and i KNOW how to bowl . i might not be awesome or anything but i dont suck that bad .. haha . dood im sorry but i cant help it , i was BORED ! yup .

today sucked . i dint hand in my math worksheet cos i dint go to school on that day and i dint realise it .. im trying to get on the good side of the damn teacher this year for ONCE . i've been told to stand facing the walls in kindergarden , stand at the back of the class and pull my ear in p1 to 3 , and faced the discipline mistress from p4 to p6 . yupp .. u get what im trying to get across ? i havnt been on the good side of teachers all my skool life .. well i really couldnt give a shit actually . why would i wanna suck up to the teacher when it's not ME ? well that's so that maybe the teacher might tell my mom how good i am in school . then my mom would get a good impression of me , let my dad know . so then , i can go out more often , get grounded less . sounds like a great plan ? dont know la maybe not . but either way , it dint quite work out as planned . so yeah . blehh .

the same question's been running thru my mind : is it depression ? but STILL , i havnt found myself an answer . sometimes i just dont feel like talking at all , yet people still talk to me . and i feel bad if i have to ask them to just shut the fuck up cos it's really rude , and i wouldnt want that either . so i just gotta talk to them . but sometimes when they talk to me , i have no idea what im saying back to them cos im mind's just in a whirr . and i cant thinkk .. so i'll always wanna ask them , what did i just say to you ? but i cant bring myself to do it . finee .. that's just small stuff , no big deal . but im just feeling all down sometimes .. including .. now ? i dunno . at least i still had the little something in me to blog about my day .. but it wasnt too exciting was it ? and i feel really drained from just typing that short thing . i dont know what's going on , but i sure am trying to find out . and i sure hope i do . i dont want to continue blogging about how im feeling right noww .. i just cant seem to find the words to put them down . so i wont talk about it . that's all i guess .. i dont know what else to say . im feeling completely dowwn right now . drained too .

so god , listen to my prayers . help me see the light . take my hand while i struggle thru this darkness , guide me lord .

amen.

2004-01-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

okay. im so annoyed . i had so much work . and i hate work . any smart ass would know that . plus im tired too .. and i dont know waht im doing . i left dinner early to finish off my work , uhm . FINE . i admit ! that was just an excuse . but damn i hate work . and i dont know why . but recently i havnt had anything to blog about .. my apetite's never predictable . my mind's in a huge mess ? as it always is . im always saying im getting pretty used to being messed , lost and confused . but .. am i really ? that's what i should be asking myself shouldnt i ? well i cant answer myself . which is really terrible . i dont want to pick that thing up again . i dont ever want to use it for those things again . those things i used to do to myself . which was just like a month ago . well im tryingg .. n i hope i wont ever use that thing for those so-they-call-it-stupid purposes again . and why do people try sooo hard all the time , just to please a certain someone ? fine . that's a natural reaction which often occurs to me too . but then , why do US , as human beings have this natural reaction and nature ? sighh i never used to cry so easily . as in , i used to cry alot as a kid . more than an average kids . with loud screams too :PpP . but then as i grew older , i became stronger . and i dint cry so often . as a matter of fact , i hardly EVER cried . i feel myself getting weaker . whyy ? dont ask me . im in a huge blurr right now . not as in , literally mental block kinda thing . as in , i dont know what im feeling . and be (if u do come to my blog that is) , i can relate to how you're feeling right now . went thru it many times before .. and im still alive rnt i ? u'll let it pass after awhile . but be stronger if it ever comes back to u .. blehh . not a time for me to give lousy advice :P the adrenaline is taking over me . wtf is wrong ? and wtf is going on ? anyway .. he just wrote me a poem . dont get the wrong idea cos he doesnt like me . he's just a retard ..
Every day I love you more and more,
you are the one I care most for.
To me you are so sweet and kind,
someone like you is so hard to find.
We may have had our ups and downs,
but there have been more smiles than frowns.
You make me feel special in every way,
and you always seem to brighten my day.

nice aye ? he made it up . not a bad poet . shrugs . so can anyone tell me , why isit that im feeling so mixed up . havnt i gone thru this many times enough to figure it out already ? yet i dont . school was fine today . so fcuking cold . i dont feel cold easily .. and it was a fan summore . not aircon .. but i felt so damn coldd .. doubt this has anything to do with it anyway .. so who cares . im just not doing fine at all .. i dont know why . im usually ~~pretty~~ optomistic . come on , i AM most of the time . rnt i ? but yeahh . funny thing going on in me . dont want ~~depression~~ anymore . so let's hope this isnt it .

2004-01-26T16:31:00.000+08:00

my account got hacked . AGAIN . whywhyWHYYY ?! who the hell's the mutha fucker . i suspect that it's the very same person . the very same asshole . im still busy writing geog notes . test on friday .. ahh ! and history . same day dood . did i mention that before ? how very fuuucckkkked up . im so ~~pissed~~ . i got hacked . again . im never talking to anyone ever again .. i'll be living in a world of silent mode from now onwards . so no one can ever pick on me again . no one can ever hurt me again . u know why ? cos i'll be as good as dead ! bwahahahaha . and that'll bring joy to the world as well . and as quoted from iris , "what if we need to ask u something really important ?" well that's TOO DAMN BADDD !! cos im eviiill . muahahahahaha .

FUCK SHIT ASSWIPE OF A FOB

2004-01-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

happy happy doodles !
im so happy . i got my account back ! muahahhaha im so happy . so happppyyy !! and i've just laid a deal with darryl . two tickets to go to theshow in exchange for a pair of NIKE LOWDUNKSSS !! yahahhaha .. and those cost like . dunno how much . hehehe .. oh shit . now he doesnt AGREE TO IT . know why ? cos he thinks it's not worth it . haha so now im asking for converse . im so demanding . but oh well . he wurfs me . hahaha cos im his bestestestest friend plus little sister and confidante all rolled in one . haha im boosting my ego . nahh im kidding . im just in a really joyous mood cos i got my pw back . im still demandinggg .. im so bad . hehehe .. oh wells .

anyway . today had dinner . with the family people . and their kids . bloody RUGRATS . babies . so annoying . hahah .. anyway . the deal now's converse

2004-01-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

sad me got hacked . yeahh i know i've mentioned that .. and sad me couldnt go out today cos of my dad . sad me wants to buy a new pair of converse shoes . and sad me .. cried today . booo :(:( haha long story and no one is to ask ! do u hear me ? no.one.is.to.ask. bwahahha im evil . sad me is STILL hacked . alright i'll shutup cos im being so lame but i really cant help it .

todayy was pretty much boring . im still trying to find out who the stupid ass hacker is . and i wish he/she dint have to hack me . leaving me feeling all miserable now . ~~stupidasshole~~ . now she's helping me by naming me all the contacts . so helpful . i had just TWENTY-FOUR contacts last night . haha .. now i have over 50 . sighh i had 150 on my previous contact list . boo :'( . the person's been using my email account and pretending to be me on msn . bloody fcuker . omg omg joy just told me the person started talking to her and said that i kissed sherman and yeqin was my first kiss . WTFF . this person must've been from nanyang , who knows both sherman AND yeqin . noww .. who could that be ? well this person's an ass .

talking to gareth now . and he send me a really amusing chatlog of him and the hacker . hahhaha and the person was all like , disgustingly slutty . haha wtf .

[busyaddingbackallmycontacts...]....
..

ohh joy , i've got a 122 contacts now . but i still want my account back ! im so pissed . how could that person hack my account and scrutinise my reputation .. haha okay im not sure if that sentence made any sense but oh wells ! going for movie later tonight with my shit cousin . gonna watch the last samurai with my family , and my *ahem* cousin . who's like .. what . 9 years old ?? and really really annoying . sighh i need my account BACKKK . fucking asshole .

2004-01-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

hacked
shitshitshit . you wont believe this , but .. my MSN hotmail account's been hacked . kayy fine so maybe it's quite believable . who cares anyway . so if anyone talks to you on msgr using MY account , please talk to the person and help me find out who itis , plus try to "nicely" persuade the person to give me my pw back . pleasepleaseplease . my goshh i really need my pw back . desperately . wtf is wrong with these people ? im most afraid that they talk to my friends , and my friends think it's ME . that's just .. wrong . yup . so please help me . really . im really tired now but im still trying to find the asshole who hacked my email account . bloody ~~loser~~ . i dont think it's her . she isnt really sucha person .. yeap . and she was kind enough to offer to help me . i just hope la yeahh .. please , person , whoever you really are . kindly return me my password . PLEASE ?

..justnow as i was sitting in the car , on the way home . all these thoughts just start flooding my mind . i started thinking about what hannah mentioned on her blog , that she felt somehow different when she heard a certain song , related to it in a way she's never had before . well i've managed to relate to a song many times before . depends on my mood , ranging from a sad song , to a really happy cheerful perky and bouncy song .. or to a really sweet song to a really hardcore song . well u get the idea . the very FIRST time i watched christina aguilera's the voice within video , i felt it in me . the power of the lyrics of the song , the power of her voice . the way it reaches into your soul and touches you . pokes you . and grabs you . it was then that i fell in love with that song . i can remember being in europe , and watching mtv when i came on . i could relate to that song so well . under so many circumstances . i talked about the song before in my previous blog entries . that was just a few months ago . and now im back here talking about the SAME song . how's that ? then there are other songs as well . an example is in the end by linkin park . it IS an old song . but i still can relate to it so well once i listen to it . how you've tried so hard , and in the end it doesnt even matter ? then there's the song hannah talked about . the trouble with love is by kelly clarkson . yup . i can really relate to all these songs . and i think it's good to be able to relate to songs , cos at the same time , it lets you know that you're not the only one going thru certain things . especially hard times . there are other people beside you going thru the same thing , feeling the same stuff . there's also misundaztood by pink . im sure many of us can relate to that song .. isnt it ? rnt there so many times where u felt totally misundaztood and at the same time , left out ? yeahh . there's also over my head , better off dead by sum41 . when u listen to the lyrics , what it reads may be something really different to what you should be feeling . but the meaning BEHIND the song , BEHIND the lyrics , behind the SURFACE of it all . you'll find a special message . good or bad , doesnt matter . but it's there . and it's something I can relate to .

for this blog entry , i've got plenty of things to say .. haha . so it's like , i'll be changing subjects real quickly .

i think friends are people you should treasure . they're one of the most important aspects of life . dont let go of them just cos of a certain something . cos soon you'll realise that something is nothing . and i mean nothing compared to what TRUE FRIENDS are . family's real important too . and friends , could actually be your family . they could mean THAT much to you . MY friends , are MY family . they're combined as one . and they're god's blessings to me . my godsent .

2004-01-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

i changed my pw back to the same one i had before . cos i dont want others to think im afraid of them . and while they post hurtful comments and tags on their blog , they expect me to do the same . but check my blogger history .. i havnt . and how was i to know that she hated me all of a sudden ? think i wanna hang out with u people . but if they were to continue insulting mg , im just gonna fucking beat them up . oh well , whadya know ? at least mg doesnt produce ahlians and shitheads of a doik , unlike cgs . ohh well . people like that , u know ? narrow-minded freaks . boo them :(

todayy we went to the temple (i had no choice!) . but before that i prayed to God . hee . at least i did that . and i prayed to God after that too :) so yeahh . i dont know if that's enough but ahh well . went to temple . ate temple food . vegeterian stuff . then later left the temple .. and came home ! then yeahh .. stuff . nothing much . which leaves me here , typing away and talking to steph . my darling husband .. whahaha .. dint see elvina this cny . ohwells i see her in school nearly everyday anywayys . the oranges mom bought are so good i eat one everyday .. or TWO sometimes . muaha soso yummy .

2004-01-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

I like the way you do that right thurr right thurr

haha just came home . haha okay we had ANOTHER reunion dinner . i mean , who the hell has TWO reunion dinners ? yeap had it at my dad's side grandma's . then FINALLY me and meL could leave . mom drove us to dalvey to see gongon and mama cos they just came back from malaysia today . hahah so many people were there . well at the basement .. bebe , tits , age , bryan , XL , mia .. and alot of other guys . whaha .. oh yes and joyce too . haha the music was turned on loud , and my uncle opened the bar .. hahaha .. age was teaching us to breakdance and shit . and they put missy elliot and chingy on .. haha then we got enough of missy so they put chingy on . i like the way you do that right thurr right thurr . we dint dance in the beginning . tits was doing some dance shit thing . all footwork . he's pretty good . hahha well whadya expect ? it's my cuz . yeap and i asked mia whether she went back to mg the other day cos i thought i saw her . and she was like yeahh . and i was like , oh cos i waved at you and u ignored me so i was like shit did i wave to the wrong person ? hahah and she was like all , sorry haha and shit like that . yup . then be could dance this thingy so well . haha got me all jealous . nahh kidding . i wasnt jealous . i just thought it was damn cool la . hahah tits was doing it so well . yeap it's the footwork stuff . i've got PART of it going . well hey , it's a start . muaha ... played the drums a little .. and . sucked badly . haha .. but oh wells . yeap .. then STILL trying to breakdance . godd bryan can breakdance sO GOod . hahaha .. and douglas was best at the footwork thinga . haha im still trying ! yeapp .. then mia brought some friends along . from UWC . okay finee . not that many friends . like , 2 ? haha .. but yeah . got more red packets from my aunt , gongon , and , my aunt's sister . haha auntie barbara . that's about it la yeah . haha .. switch your hips when you're walkin' let down your hurr ! okay fine . i'll stop . haha

and if anyone's curious why i changed my blog pass , it's none other than cos there's been unwanted people who's been terrorising my blog . fuckers .. haha oh well . they're lonely people .(:

2004-01-22T18:47:00.000+08:00

just cash no cheques
well it's chinese new year . uhhmm .. got lotsa red packets today . whaha just cash , no cheques . errmm .. yesterday . ended skool at ten . went to nyps to see my friends .. wanted to go see mrs cheryl lim and give her two tight slaps on the face .. haha nah kidding . saw alina . she got into rgs by appeal .. and camilla in her sc uniform . nice ! saw a few sc girls and a few mg girls as well .. met nic at ny . and then louisa came late with her . the one who claims others are friendless when she's actually just contradicting herself cos she's the friendless one with bad english . she's a bitch to everyone except people she suck up to . she's nothing but a huge try-hard . whaha and it's time for ME to diss HER back . well she tagged along . since when did she hang out with louisa and nic ? and since when were they HER true friends ? she's trying so hard to win louisa . geezes what's with some people . and uhh she's STILL contradicting herself cos in her blog , she mentioned that i should go find MY OWN friends . uhhh .. havnt they always been my own friends ? unlike her , who keeps switching friends . she gets tired of someone then she goes to someone else . how ... disgusting . so how can she actually have the cheek to say that they're her true friends .. when .. she used to hate louisa cos of her own jealousy ? then start talking to her and being so nice all of a sudden which totally scared her . huh ! and by right , me louisa and nic hang out together in nanyang . not with her . so why cant she just find her own friends instead of taking other people's ? and why cant she just judge with her own mind instead of judging by other's testimony ? i have plenty more to say , but i just cant be bothered cos i'd rather write about something else . i admit her entry on her blog was really hurtful but i wouldnt want to let others bring me down so easily . im not the type who'll let others step over me . but to end this all with , i'll thank rach for this statement . thanks rachie ! im not gonna quote her exact words cos i cant remember , but she said , dont bother about people like this . they're just lonely . and i agree with her . she is just lonely . a total sadcase . who's .. uhh . friendless .

okay . so nic was in the girl's toilet . and stuff . and .. aiyah i dont wanna go on about those two . including louisa . im sorry louisa this may be really direct but u should get what i mean . dont mention anything , to me or to anyone . just to yourself . cos only you can admit to yourself . so i'll skip on the whole nanyang thing . after that nic louisa and her went out together . to orchard . and took neoprints apparently . but yeahh . i should have listened to stephee's advice . she told me , "why go back there ?! why do u wanna recollect the sad past . dont go !" well steph , it wasnt sad with my friends . but itis now . hahas at least i've got you dearie ! p1 bestie .

after that , it was around 12pm . mom came to pick me up . i saw px there as well . and i screamed so loudly ms soh thought i was crazy . but hey , THAT'S WHAT MGRAWKERS ARE FOR RIGHT ?! then went home . surprise party for meL . claire val jaz jeannnine glenna and nat were there alraedy .. they bought a quish for meL . haha .. kay then i got pushed in . and me and claire were busy learning how to DIVE ! haha .. sorry but i cant dive for peanuts and neither can she .so val was busy teaching us . hahah so funny . but we NEARLY got it . and claire was being damn funny . slowly they all left one by one . left with val and .. cant remember who . hahas .. but then they left too . after tits be bryan and joyce came . after awhile they left for orchard . meL and i quickly showered and changed , called a cab to meet them at cine . shit ! nicolette and hannah and a few other church friends of theirs were just there but i was too late . and apparently he was there ! shitt !! i saw sarah b while walking up the escalator . she just watched peter pan .. haha . i wanna watch dood . found meL at lips cafe . but we had to go back down cos tits and people were at yoshinoya . saw martin james this other guy .. and .. haha cant remember who . then after tits and bryan were done with their lunch , we left yoshinoya and then saw field and mark ow . and then be saw this guy she knows called david who's from acsb . and apparently , he just left ! bloody shit . damnit . okay whatever . after that at night went to dad's side grandma's for dinner . after THAT dinner , went to eat with mom's side at crystal jade at paragon . ahh yeahh and joyce has a funny smile . after that went to china town , shit . so crowded . then later when back to dad's side grandma's . and only left past 12am .. could only get to sleep at 130 cos i had to lay out my outfit for today .

well today , i couldnt wake up . well i could . at 815am . that's shitass early ainit ? but it's considered late this morning for my family . i was the last to wake up . and i got screamed the shit outta my ass cos i was late . and i looked like shit . but get a life dad , no one wakes up THIS early anymore . not on chinese new year . so that makes it less red packets to get when we went to oxley garden .. haha but it's not just about money . it's about .. being tired ? anyway . yeahh . went visiting today . going back to grandma's for din .. eww . nasty shit food . oh wells . bye !

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2004-01-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

damn fat

ahhhh my god i wrote so much shit and my comp got fucked up so its all gone now . *screaammmsss* why must this always happen ? so now i gotta type all over again .

sighh im not gonna type it out . it was really really really extremely funny tho . ahh wells . shit happens . and im not pissed at anyone anymore . cos .. yeahh . well . you know i took 35 mins to type out all the shit and i end up losing it . im PISSED AT THAT .

2004-01-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

so pissed off

God im SO FUCKING PISSED OFF . well i'll start off by telling you that fucker accused me of telling my mom about blabla cos my mom found out all about it , and my mom might tell her mom . see , mello be jaz claire and field were out today , when my mom suddenly called meL and scolded her cos she found out about be's blabla . so apparently , they got damn pissed cos they thought it was me . they assumed it was me . wtf . why the fuck would i wanna tell on her for when i was the one who asked her to do it ? yeahh and apparently , meL came into my room and asked me about it but i ignored her . ohh bad me , uhhhh i was SLEEPING ?! then just now i just went into her room and she was like really pissed and told me be's damn pissed at me . and im like , the hell's going on ?! it's like , as if im not trustworthy or anything . bitch fucker . i've never told on anyone before . it's not right to me , to tell on someone for doing something which even you yourself actually wants to do . so now im not talking to them . i've decided to not talk to them . well i guess their true color's shown today . they dont have faith in me . are they the people i called family ? my cousin . my sister . we're not JUST related by blood . we grew up together . we were sure as hell close . be and i had our share of bad fights . but .. arrghhh . im damn pissed off . whywhy WHYYY ??

FUCK SHIT ASSWIPE

im just so damn pissed . i'll try to stray my mind away from that subject . i feel as if im speaking really bad english . probably cos im so pissed . but that isnt really right cos .. uhh . i dont speak bad english ! well today .. there was chapel service in the morning . instead of having it in the school hall , sec ones had it in .. chapel . and once the speaker was done , there was plenty of time left so mr ng whats his face was telling us this story thing about . uhh stuff . and then he asked what was the moral of the story . and juli was like , me me me !! and mr ng was like , no juliana , you're sec three . hahaha she was damn funny cos like if you answer a question then you get a bar of chocolate from him . she sat next to me and started pulling my hand up so mr ng got me to say something and i dint know what to say then juli told me the answer .you can stray away without a goal . haha ! and he was like , VERY GOOD ! I'LL GIVE YOU TWO CHOCOLATE BARS ! hahhaha .. and juli was like .. "50 percent tax" haha and im like , okayyokayy . then later in the morning before recess i had pe lesson with him . and at the end of the lesson i was like , mr ng you owe me two chocolate bars . and he was like , oh yes . come and see me tmr morning i'll give you one big bag that was a very good answer . hahahha omg . so i guess i owe you half a bag huh juli ? shitassfunny . then later came home . and thenn went online for a short while . went to sleep . got up at 545 , showered , and then went to min's room . and uhhh GOT DAMN FUCKING PISSED OFF . yeah . so pissed man .. and today during geog class i was sleeping . shit not my fault .

2004-01-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

i was gonna write a song about friendship . with her . but then , i decided not to . cos no one would care anyway . so bleh . i was gonna take a nap just now at 845 . but i changed my mind . cos i came online and i dont intend to go off anytime soon .. or maybe soon la . but ah whatever .

2004-01-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

it's partaeYyEE timee !!

last night was meL's party at our house . haha we had caracal , four leaved clover (which was my cousin calvin's band) , and .. i think there was another one . cant remember . well bev kerry jiayi and stephee came .. cos meL asked me to invite my mg friends . haha yeap . and they all ended up in the pool . kerry came first and tits was so surprised to find out that she's my age . haha she's sooo tall . blehh . so caracal played first , then flc (which was the best of course haha) then .. dunno whether there was a third band but forget it . ohh yeahh and steph , paul tang IS from brmc . there were lotsa lotsa FOOOODDD . sushi was so good . haha yup . then after awhile val ding came .. and she dint know what she was doing there . wtf haha .. soon after a whole group of people from UWC came . they were all mia's friends . although i dint even see mia .. yup .. then after that things got messy with beatrice (not my cousin) and shuping .. me and steph had to walk jiayi to NIE cos she dint want her mom to see the guys .. and after that we RAN all the way back . we actually RAN , mind you . i ran barefooted . hahha on the hard road and ground and shit mannn .. steph had slippers tho .. we ran all the way , nonstop . well maybe just a few seconds cos of traffic light and the fact that i certainly dont wish to be knocked down ?? well it'll be quite fun actually so i dont mind .. uhh kayy nevermind . then up the hill we went , having to stop once and walk cos it was damn tiring . when i got back , things were better .. ohh and bebe's parents were there . then her mom was like , "i think i saw you at NIE ?!" and everyone was confused . then i was like , "yeah i was there haha" then she was like , "huh ?! then why you back so fast ?!" so i told her that i ran all the way . haha .. kay so then steph's parents picked her up 15 mins later . then came kerry's dad .. and then bev's parents with her sister . yeapp .. then later i was sitting down with tits and age just talking .. and shit . then tits asked me to go brmc today . i said maybe .. then val lange came and sit with me .. omg age's tryinna speak singlish now but he's trying too hard . he's forcing the auzzie accent out . kayy so we were talking . and then later everyone slowly left . gayle had to change back to her ij school uniform cos her clothes got damn wet . ohh yeahh and police came . apparently the neighbours complained . later val left . and then tits left for home with his mom and dad bebe stayed over . he left his instruments to pick up today .. haha his mom came to pick it up just now i think . jaz slept over too . then we all slept in meL's room .. gayle's dad picked her up at 1am . haha .. me jaz meL and be were talking until 4am .. bebe fell asleep halfway actually . so the three of us were still talking . then we went to bed .

haha the next morning , stupid jaz made meL set the alarm at 5am so she can wake up to go for church . we all ended up waking at 5am and going back to bed . woke up at 9am .. and jaz only left at 10am .. haha after that we wanted to go back to sleep , me and be . but we dint really la . and meL's a damn bitch . she's been bitching me the whole damn fucking day . ~~fucking bitch~~ fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch fucking bitch .. okay sorry . im just seriously damn pissed at her . ah well . dint go to brmc todayy . shit . ohh and my dad wrote an apology letter to the neighbours . so like , he typed and printed it out and made us put it in 6 letter boxes i think . yeap . then later was lunch . after that i was so tired i slept in the car while my parents drove somewhere to look at stuff . dint know what was going on cos i was asleep ? yeah . im still tired now . blehh . had violin lesson just now . ah violin isnt really an instrument that suits me . cos im not the type of classical-ish person . the type of quiet person . but oh wells .

havnt done laoshi's work . better get down to doing it once im done with the comp . hate chinese . ahh everyone's getting the password prompt thingy now . it's getting kinda .. dunno . haha dont wanna say . but oh wells . anyway . i think i've posted .. uhh quite abit . so im gonna settle it for .. now .

2004-01-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

back from barker vibe ... haha omg the thing was so ~~gay~~ . well it was really entertaining actually . megan barker's damn chio and could dance damn well . haha . the guys were breakdancing . and then there was the part where the guys danced to britney spears . and the girls danced to jt . wtf ?? but their dance was really good . even the guys , as gay as they might have been , were damndamn shitass goodddd . their moves were really fast and precise . even the girls . megan barker ! needless to say . haha .. and me , jia , han , rach , and rach (another one) and magdelene and bev and kerry , were screaming . haha .. well me han kerry and jia were dancing and screaming . ~~in our seats~~ . haha juli was there . saw huron and joshua as well . haha and uhhmm he is soooo hottt !! ohh sarah was there too . haha . people who havnt seen their shoutouts please scroll downn ! so we took retarded pics . but we couldnt take much , cos smart ass me brought my camera without a memory card , so i could only store a few pics using camera memory . wtf . haha me and jia took pics with juli . haha and i looked really crapped out in ALL the pics . really grossed out . haha .. i looked the most messed . booo . :( so anyway now i gotta try find a cord so i can connect my cam to my comp so that i can upload my pics . sighh .. ah wells . oh and juli forgot jia's name .. haha she was like , "what's your name ah i really forgot .." haha wtf . kayy i wore uhhmm .. a skirt . and a tanktop . with sneakers . hahah .. then after the thing ended , we just hung out around for a short while . then i asked mom to pick me up . then mom went to the florist , and i said i wanted to wait in the car . so she said , "okay i wont be long . i'll be really quick ." quick my ass . she took so damn long . then later took me to buy macs cos i dint have dinner . not my fault . haha i was gonna eat instand noodles before i left . and after eating for awhile , i noticed some ants in it . yeah i said ants . so i was like , shit . wtf . yeap . had macs . nuggets and fries . yayy . go me . but i couldnt finish . yeapidoo .

2004-01-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

back from cheerleading . yayy . well actually i could be back at 430 . but i went to eat at around 4 .. so yeah . you get the idea . so today was cca orientation thing . chose our ccas . and i terrible me forgot to give my sl's their stuffs . bad me . haha .. then after school the cheerleading thing happened . like , tryouts and all . im base ! :( haha well it aint that bad la . just hope the people dont have painful shoes ?! blehh . juliana and kerry are base too ! well i THINK juli is base . but kerry definitely is . uhh . okay nevermind . haha .. and i cant believe i let iris talk me into joining bowling . well not team . so i might , just MIGHT be going for the trail thingy . the one that you pay 10 bucks per session . haha but most probably wont be going for it . heheh . ohh and people who havnt checked out their shoutouts i wrote for them , scroll down and you'll find it . hahah and cheerleading was funnnn !! haha i told you liankim . and steph liked it too . before that she said it was a weird choice . boo you steph . kidding . haha anyway gonna shower now . blog again later maybe .

2004-01-15T21:27:00.000+08:00

just came back from tennnis . i was having pain while playing halfway . haha shitt . oh well i did last thru the whole training . got a blister on my thumb tho . daymnnn .. i wanna go barker vibe !! havnt asked my dad tho . cos usually on fridays i gtg to me grandmama's place for dinner , with the disgusting soup . that taste like water with salt . bleugh . so i shall persuade my dad to lemme go to barker vibe . hee . i wanna go mans . mello's party this satty . going to hannah's church then coming home for her party . yayy . anyway , thats all for tonight . i've posted twice for today . yayy go me .

2004-01-15T11:40:00.000+08:00

im dying . that's why i dint go to school today . cos i dint wanna die in school . that'll really suck . i slept at 845 last night , without finishing my work . i was prepared to go to school this morning tho .. so i woke up , and got changed into mg uniform . my mom came in and said , if you dont feel good , dont go to school . so i said , nonono . im okay . so i went to do everything . and then as i was almost ready , i nearly died again . so i decided not to go to school . later this morning i woke up feeling a whole lot better .. when suddenly it striked me again . so i almost died as well . right now im getting all the sheit suddenly hitting me .~~again~~ . sighhh .. i wanna go to school . well , not for work and all the fucked shit . but for my friends . and the people there . and i know ~~someone~~ is beginning to think something else about me again . after we've so-i-thought ~~settled~~ everything . but there's a new beginning to it . and there's nothing i can do about it . so im here trying to ignore alot of fucked up things . but i dont think it matters to her anymore . so i'll move on to another thing .

i hate kerry's complexion . it's so ... ~~perfect~~ . and she's so tall . taller than bebe , i think . well she would be . i can confirm that . well yeahh . okay nevermind . haha

im kinda happy to miss school today . but yet im not happy .. haha . that's contradiction . weell .. yeah . whee . sorry sheryl . omg bev suddenly posted so many friendster bulletins .. i cant keep up . haha okay i havnt completed school science homework . and mrs sim sucks . oh and today we're supposed to be learning how to use a bunsen burner . haha i love the flames . it kinda inspired me to write a good poem that day , but too bad for me . no paper :( . sorry if im freaking you out with my weirdness but .. ah well . maybe the damn thing is taking over me . and the flames . wtf did i just say ?? i mean , that sounded absolutely not right .

im seriously going back to school tomorrow . i promisseee . i'll see kerry and steph and bev and hannah and genia and iris and selene and rachel and lk and everyyyonnneee . uhhm . kay sorry . im freaking out too much . oh im having chicken porridge for lunch . ugh . i hate porridge . but chicken porridge's quite okay if you dont eat too much of it . i'll stop here before no one ever wants to visit my blog again .

2004-01-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

thai express + SHOUTOUTS !!

heyyo . sigh .. dint update yesterday cos i dint have time . yesterday after school , me kerry and hannah went to eat thai express at holland village . after lunch we went to coffee bean to buy steph a chocolate iceblended , and kerry and i bought a carrot cake cos it .. looked really good ? then later took a cab to kerry's house . which was just nearby . i love her house ! so nicee . okay so we spent awhile there . and i love her sister's electric guitar . i like the black one . so niceeeee ! okay then me and kerry opened the carrot cake and started eating it . so gooood . but i dont like the nuts in it . but yeah . after that , hannah and i had to leave cos we were in a rush . so we quickly took steph's drink , and went to drop it off at steph's place . mmhmm . then after that took a taxi back to maplewoods and mgs . then i went home from mgs . which was already about 5+ ? yeap . then went home . had tuition at 530 . sighh .. should i join math olympiad training ? cos i hate math . but i think mom wants me to join . badbadbad . im in a dilemma . and no one wants to join cheerleading with me cos they think it's bimbotic . stupid . boo them . but tennis still rocks . at least im in tennis club . and so many people wanna join tennis club . im gonna do a little shoutout here .. actually i've been wanting to do it for a long time . but lk beat me to it . cos i always forgot . haha . so when i saw her blog , i remembered . the first one goes out to juliana , my sl , haha tho im not really close to her la . but she had to face some really really scary stuff yesterday .. so yup !

juliana : hey ! thanks for being such a great sl ! haha .. yesterday you told me you were in the hospital to check up on a certain something , and the word "hospital" is never good . so i prayed for you , hoping all will be good and go well . see ? im so niceee .. =PpP haha jkjk . then after that you told me what happened .. hope you're feeling better today yeah ? i wanna hear your band play somedayy .. dont forget that ! haha .. ohh and i must dance with you someday soon hahahhahahah kay anyway , take care . xoxox .

steph : p1 bestie ! haha love ya alwaysalways . thanks for being so nice to me . real goodgood friend . my husband ! hahah .. may we be married together forever . *uhhhmm ?* hee =D always the most photogenic one in all our pictures . pffffft . haha jkjk . and thanks for accepting my so-they-say retarded behaviour haha i'll never forget you . i wouldnt . after six years of not seeing you and still being able to be your goodfriend again , how can i ever forget you ? haha love ya stepheebabeehh !

hannah : hannah ! retardees united . forever . haha . thanks for not casting me aside cos of my so-they-say-again retarded behaviour . hahah .. yupyup . see you in church this satty !

rachel : where's the juice ?! uhm .. haha okay nevermind . hee . well i've seen you around nanyang before just that i dint know you at all . haha . but glad i know you nowww .. if only i'd known you earlier cos you're such a goodgood friend . with the retardedness too . boo you . haha kidding . love ya dearie !

louisa : hey weezzaa !! such a greatass friend . i'll always love you . goodandbad times were there . and you sticked by me during downtimes . haha went to macs together . you prancing around the house . and defending diddley so sweetly im sure he'd be touch if he was actually a living thing . uhm yeah . haha . those were few of our many memories together . i'll love ya forever . must go out someday soon yeah ? *beeghuggie*xoxox .

nicko : nickkkk ! loveya . haha . such a great friend . and always the most photogenic one as well . boo youuu .. haha kidding . anyway , we must go out someday yeah ? xoxox .

iris : how long have we known each other ? uhhmm .. since k1 . haha . besties in preschool with selene ! i can barely remember anything . but i remember us running around class while all the others were all sitting on the floor . but most importantly , i remembered you . haha .. you're such a good bowler . anyway , love ya always . haha .

jiayi : heyhey . nice and chio . haha .. new friend . too bad you had to go scgs . humph . but you must enjoy yourself there kay ? it's a good school .

selene : heyoo ! haha . known you since k2 ... i think ? cos if i actually remember correctly , you were a new student . but whatever . correct me if im wrong . then me you and iris became besties . and we were running around class with this other girl . forgot her name la . haha .. anyway . i can hardly remember anything that happened back then . wish i could . oh wells . see ya in skool .

kerry : hate your height . so damn tall haha green gummy bears rock ! hehe .. join cheerleading . ask your mom to let you since you want to . oh well . dance is good too anyway . anyhoo , thanks for being so nice to me . dont *ahem* yourself anymore kay ? it's not nice . and scars are ugly .

bev : bevbevbevbevbev . pink is punk ! haha no la . im just kidding around . pink is cool . but what's with pinkmineral anyway ? haha but it's still cool . see ya . love your hair . whee .

chris teo : chrissy ! haha okay sorry i know you hate that . but i love that name for you . hehe .. you're so mean and you're proud of it . but you're nice too . haha . although you tend to get really pissy at times . ah wells . see ya !

lynette and joanna : hey . thanks for being such greatgreat sl's . you guys were awesome . hehe . joanna looks like garfield . so they say la .

eugenia : genia .. i know i've not known you for too long yet , but you're really nice . haha .. i can tell already . so yup . see you in school . and yeah . fannwong's chio . snobbish , but still chio .

merrill : merrill tah . haha . since you cant write the 'n' in your 'tan' properly , everyone reads it as 'tah' . haha okay i'll stop mocking . anyway . thanks for being so nice to me . tho i hated you so much at one point you still beared with me . fine la i dint really hate you . but we werent getting along . haha known you since k1 . you were from maris stella kindergarden , and now you're in maris stella high . haha .. hope to see you soon .

alison : you hardly ever do come online and i have yet to post your letter . haha . im not gonna type much cos you're not gonna read it . but anyway . yeah . love ya always dearie !

lk : thanks so much for the shoutout you wrote for me ! haha . tennis forever . always . tennis club first , tennis team in june . yayy . it's better than nothing . hehe . love ya deariee

okay i've typed alot already . hahah .. so yup . im gonna stop . anyone i left out , please just tag my tagboard . i'll give you a lil' shoutout in the next entry as well . yayy ..

today we got our lockers . yay . finally ?! haha .. but i havnt put my stuff in it yet . and i actually do have tons of work to do , mind you . so i gotta finish this entry soon . mmhmm . gotta move on to ~~chinese~~ . notice everytime i gotta do work , it's always chinese ? cos i leave it to the last minute . i know that's bad . very bad la . omgomg im so happpppyyyy !! jiayi's gonna visit mg next week . yayyyyyy . anyhoo , i gotta do my -ugghh- ~~chinese~~ now . so bye !

2004-01-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

i needa scream . *screeeeaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmm* *ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH* okay . set . i've been doing work immediately after my TWO-HOUR chinese tuition , and that's not right . i dont DO work . and even if i do , my brain isnt supposed to start overworking yet . i know cos i HAVE A FUCKING HEADACHHE . see ? my body works well with my attitude . oh wait . does that make sense . dunno la . whahaha . im eating gummy bears . and im not supposed to . whaalooolooooeyyy ? boo you .

2004-01-12T19:01:00.000+08:00

just came back from kap with hannah . we saw jeanette au ! haha actually there's nothing exciting about her . she's just really chio . after school me lk and hannah took a bus down to farrer park for tennis tryouts . and .. we kinda dint get in . cos we werent better than the players already on the school team . but we got our name down . and we start training in june . it's like a MUST to be better than thr sec2s already on team . hellooo ? sec 2s , mind you . and they're already on the team . but anyway , yeah . cos it'll be unfair to the reserves who've been training for a year . lk and hannah did well . actually , i think we were all about the same la tho i dont think i did my best . and neither did lk nor hannah . we all could've done better . but oh well , shit happens . alot . doesnt really matter cos me hannah and lk are gonna be training with the school team in june to prepare next year . whoo ! training starts june . yayy . and you know what , the coach told us that today was the actual tryouts . but they dint wanna like announce and make it big cos they dont want a bigbig group to turn up . and cos tryouts are at farrer park , so some people might not know how to get there . i feel so bad now kay . cos lk told me it was only for three people . then i told sheryl that too . and that today's only the three of us cos lk got us the slots . i feel so bad nowww . cos sheryl wanted to go for tennis . kay anyway after that me lk and hannah walked to the busstop . then lk flagged a cab cos she needed to go all the way back to katong . yup . then hannah and i kept walking . took a bus back to mg . then driver picked us up . dropped us at kap for a short while . we bought gummy bears ! well i bought actually . which im bad cos i was NOT supposed to buy candy again . i bought a whole shitload with be and well yeah . we spent 20 bucks on it . *sccreeaaammsss* the woman was like , "are you guys crazy ?!" haha and we bought so much we got lucky dip and ... WON A FREE UMBRELLA ! go me ! haha kay sorry . we bought these chocolate things with peanut butter in it . *scrrreeeaammmss* how sinful . im gonna grow fat . im ALREADY fat . im gonna grow fatter . i needa lose 5kg . im eating the thing now . the peanut butter thing . and px just said that nanyang prepares you for exams better . pfffft . go away peixuan . hahas .. anyhoo . yeah . so just came back . before tennis training in june im joining tennis club first . sheit . laoshi's coming anytime soon . eeeeekks . hatechinesehatechinesehatechinese . chinese is all blah . and bleh .

2004-01-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

guess what ?? im doing chinese work ! cheers . this isnt right . i NEVER do chinese work when it's not like before exams or tests or anything . *screeeeaaammss* . how many times have i screamed today ? oh and i love youu rachiee !! haha thanks for agreeing to help me do a jt graphic . *MUAH**MUAH**MUAH* hahah .. sigh . i have two kes of chinese tingxie to learn . and alot of work .

2004-01-11T19:48:00.000+08:00

heyo . just had dinner . and i shall update . since steph always asks me to . well not always but yeah . which shows that she actually comes to my blog *beams* . but never leaves a note on my tagboard ! =( but oh well . k im really bored . lk reminded me about tennis tryouts tmr ! gasp . im scared . *whines* but i love tennis . really really wanna get in . so i went to get my racket . cos if i dont get it now i might forget to bring it tmr .quoted from lk , i'll cry if one of us doesnt get into the team . hmmm . k for din , i had satay . and i managed to spill some sauce over my pajamas . just small little dots here and there . but i couldnt stand it . so i went to change to another set of pajammies . hee =D . do i sound really clean ? ah but i aint that clean really . and im admitting it . im not sure if admitting it is a good thing or bad thing , but if you asked me sister she'll diss me like hell about my cleanliness . haha . oh wells . im scared man . damn scarfed . wtf . the maids are screaming outside . ahhh i just went to check . omgomg . my maid just won TWO THOUSAND BUCKSSSS !! ahhhhhh . *scrreeeaaammmss* okay . relax bec . relax . okay anyway . yeah . she won 2000 bucks . from 4d .. i think ? i needa do my worrkk . all juliana's fault . *pouts* kidding . well see , she starts telling me about the damn shitload of sec3 work she's got and that she's doing it now . and then i realised i havnt done mine . as in , ALL my tuition work . so i gotta do it at the same time . uhh .. okay once im done with this entry *beams* . juliana thinks im horrible . cos i told her that . haha . oh well .. im talking to hannah right now .

k done . so we were discussing about tennis tmr . among the three of us , almost everything's about tennistennistennis . hannah's gonna call me back . im scareddd .. anyway . im gonna do my work now while im online . hee .

2004-01-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

hihi .. i got a new haircut . *screeaammmss* yupyup . i got a fringe . eeks . actually i quite like it la . cos it's not the type you have in mind . it's like , layered . and not very short . yeap . and i cut about two inches of my hair ? *screaaaammmss again!!*

2004-01-11T11:36:00.000+08:00

hey . okay . since steph claimed that my entry the day before was so short , pfffft . i shall talk about camp . here're the quick facts first .

the toilets were flooded . it was dirty and disgusting but i dealed with it . yay ! the sleeping area was painful as hell , really . uhm . i forgot to bring a pillow so that made it worse . my sl's were awesomesomesomesome ! haha joanna lynette and juliana . the cheers were loud but quite good la .. very spontaneous and enthu . lotsa screaming [ilovescreaming] . campfire was real good except for the fact that my contacts were hurting me so i took one side off and i was half blind for the rest of the camp . bleh . the food was okay . afew are chicken rice , macs , and uh . biscuits ? haha . yup . ohoh oh there was icecream too . the teachers sucked . mrs poh . the games were fun . yup . and we sang alotalot .

okay . so now im on to the long story . if you dont wanna hear it , im fine with it . haha . cos i doubt it's gonna be exciting . so .. move your cursor to the furthest right , and all the way to the top . then , click. yeah . so ..

dayone
hmm . lotsa briefings . i forgot lotsa stuff so i gotta relate to steph's blog ro remember and then add MY stuff . it was quite boring . there was this person from feiyue neighbourhood link who came and briefed us from .. 9am to 415pm ?! got me all sad . haha not really la . but it was seriously seriously boring . thank god there were inbetween breaks . then came the games . just afew . which was when i got my hair covered with flour . i liked it tho . but i made sure scrubbed my head real good during shower time *ahem* . yup . then there were other games . but yeah . after my shower , i went back to the sec hall . and realised that , my bottle of conditioner broke ! shit . haha . but oh well . what happened was that my clothes were with it in a plastic bag so it kinda got covered with conditioner . lucky for me , it was dirty clothes . haha . otherwise im screwed for the next few days . after dinner .. uhh . oh yeah . then we bonded with our sl's . then bedtime ! which i might add wasnt great at all . i forgot to bring my pillow . and my sleeping bed was really really thin . i think it was the thinnest in the whole level during camp . when i rolled it up , it was just about the size of .. uhh . a really small dog . like , maybe a silky terrier puppy ? yeah . so sad . so i had my head on eugine's sleeping bag for the rest of the night . but still , not a good sleep .

daytwo
steph kerry and mildred woke me up at 515am . they couldnt find me . cos i was at the other end of the hall . they were looking for a girl with long hair . but my hair was tied up . haha . i was gonna sleep with my hair down . but i decided not to , cos the floor was disgustingly dirty . so i tied it up cos i dint want it to sweep the floor . ugh. well waking up time is at 6am . but we wanted to shower . i have to shower . i like being clean . but im not that clean la actually . haha . but i must must must take a shower . k you get my point . so i forgot to bring all my shampoo , conditioner and body foam . so i used steph's shampoo , and kerry's body foam . no conditioner =( . but surprisingly enough , my hair dint get tangled up ! woot . there werent any hot water at all . eeks . then later we had pt with mr ong . after that there was assembly and then it was breakfast . and then devotions la . after that we headed off to acsi for other stuff . uhm . ball games first , then there was this agility test next . after that it was racket games . squash and tennis . which tennis got me all sad . cos they gave this stupid racket . mini tennis racket that doesnt got DOINK . it goes CHK . and for mini tennis , you're supposed to use a soft ball . but they gave us a tennis ball . and when it bounced on the racket , ugh . so i totally messed up that one . cos you're supposed to bounce the ball , flip , bounce , then flip back . and continue that way . maximum 25 times . which i only did SIX . wtf . so messed up . after all that there was a swimming test . i was in intermediate . oh at the pool , there was a sudden *screeammmm !!* . it was juliana . hahahha .. she dropped her socks and shoes into the drain i think . something like that . her socks got all wet and dirty and eww . okay then my swimming costume was too damn big cos it doesnt belong to me , so i had sheryl i think , or was it kerry , tie a rubber band at the back . kay after i was done swimming , a whole group of ac guys came in at the same time . ahhhh !! i mean , yeah they're just guys no big deal . right ? but still . we were in swimming costumes . *screeaammms !* then back to mgs . which i couldnt shower til 40 mins later . dint really matter much . but showering still sucked that day . later we had campfire . unfortunately for me , my contacts were hurting that day . well , later that day . and by night , it was as good as gone . hurt me so much . i took it off . one side . so i was half blind for the rest of the night , and the next day . so there was lotsa cheering . our class won for class skit . which i thought totally messed up . erica and i were the narrator . no script ! haha . so like , stuttered abit . and we got julie to help us out this time la . haha . a short part . we had these cute songs too . haha .. and the cheers . screams again ! and we attempted to wake maplewoods up . haha .. i dint lose my voice tho . haha .. cos i scream alot at home too . well shout . actually , i do both . anyhoo , then night came . had my head on sheryl's sleeping bag this time . i fell asleep really quick . yeap .

daythree
it was short . to start off with , steph and mildred forgot to wake me up ! so sad =( so i couldnt shower that day . and they forgot to wake kerry as well . so kerry got pissed . for a little while . then later went to holland close for cip stuff . where you gotta take these forms and interview the senior citizens there . there was this guy who was really really nice ! haha yup . so in the end we only got ONE survey completed when we were supposed to complete afew more . we only got that really nice guy to do it . yay for him . after that , we went back . cleaned up . and packed . later on went for house meets . jackson ! we got the auditorium . yeap . so i went with hannah and rach . after that hannah and i found kerry . then later we went to look for steph . who wasnt done yet . once she was done , we walked to kap to eat lunch . i saw siyu there . she was in nygh . okay then later on , i walked back to mg . which was when i waited for mom to pick me up at the concourse . and then later . yeah . i shant continue with daythree cos it's only supposed to be ABOUT CAMP .

so yeah . i think i've typed alot . and im still in pajammies thank you . with glasses . not changed at all . haha . lunchie's at home anyway . okay . have a good day cos im getting tired of typing already . after typing that whole shitload of stuff , who wouldnt ?

2004-01-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

heloo .
camp's over .
it was quite fun .
and quite silly .
but my sl's were damn nice .
juliana lynette and joanna .
haha ..
hope they see this ..
did lotsa stuff .
uhh . what i got from camp ?
eyebags !
and uh . almost a backache .
my sleeping bag was so damn thin .
i could feel the floor .
as in , really feel .
blah .
so i ended up with my body on my sleeping bag
and my head on sheryl's sleeping bag .
sigh .. okay some stuff just came to my mind and when i talk about this shits , i always write it in a whole clump . ahh i dunno . i just cant seem to put my thoughts out in words sometimes . and i gotta think . cos it's kinda hard to describe this shit you feel . uhm . for me . it's like , sometimes i feel so small . like , messed and shit . which is really not relevant to the stuff i said above . but yea ..at times it's like , i feel that way for no apparent reason at all . which feels too wrong . i mean , you feel something without a reason ? wtf . and when that happens , whenever im upset or anything close to that , i begin to realise that there ARE people who are there for me all the time . but i still cant help feeling shit . i probably havent changed much on the surface . maybe i havnt changed much either emotionally . just a little . the kinda thing that's part of growing up . yet there are stuff that's just so .. different ? i dont know . during those fcukedup moments , i feel as if everyone's changed . i dont know them anymore . they dont know me anymore . i dont even know myself ?

my sister just came in . and you know what ? i just realised that i ignored her . i dont usually ignore her . i either just scream the hell outta her . or love her and hug her . so what was i doing just now ? anyway , i shall be happy . i shall not be uh . dont know what you call it . OH MY GOSH . shitshitshit . am i getting too sensitive ? i just fucking told chris off just cos he asked me how's mgs . i was like , "good . are you sucking up to me just to get to know more girls ?" he's abit of that sort but he aint usually that way to me .

2004-01-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

heyyo ..
sigh .
grandmama coming over for dinner tonight .
blah .
im eating skittles right now .
a whole lot of skittles .
it's not like those small packs you find at pertrol stations .
it's like ,
this really huge bag of it .
it can be filled with about 3 of the small packs .
i've been eating it for the past hour .
yeap .
my teeth shall not rot .
repeat solemnly after me .
bec's teeth shall not rot .
sigh ..
im tryinna help iris with her blog .
im seriously bored .
EAT MY MOOMOO COW !
okay sorry .
im still eating skittles .

2004-01-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

i needa go ouut .
but i cant today .
cos it's family day .
how highly gay can that be .
i wanna watch school of rock ..
sigh so im not going out today .
not tmr either .
or the day after .
i dont think i'll be going out on monday-friday .
cos ..
monday ,
i gotta stay back til late .
tuesday ,
same .
wednesday to friday i've got orientation camp ..
so yeap .
no going out until saturday .='(
im gonna make good use of saturday .
to go out .
anyway
i'll post later .
bye .

2004-01-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

so im still dwelling
over the fact that i hate my class .
and to make matters worst ,
my parents are having some friends over .
with litttle kiddies .
who are like around 1and a half years old ,
to about ,
say , 8 or 9 years old ?
dude .
no !
how can they do this ..
but i guess it's for kai's wellbeing .
for him to make friends and all .
yeah .
i saw the jt thing rachie did for steph .
SCREEAAAMMMSSS !!
alright .
so this is the third time im screaming .
oh wells .
jt's so hottt !!
lovehimlovehimlovehimlovehimlovehim .
i hate my class .
it sucks kay .
and relax steph .
i dont believe yours is much worse than mine .
oh and did i mention that the best thing about mgs ,
is probably only the uniform ?
*nods*
i havnt taken my passport photos .
i needa take them .
soon .
probably tmr .
need them from school .
fuck my comp's screwed again .
so i gotta post first .

2004-01-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

dont like my class .
let me be in her class ..
their class .
i wrote a shitass long entry just now .
and my comp got screwed .
so it was all gone .
hate you .

2004-01-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

uhm . hey .
so today ,
school was okay .
i dint get into the same class as anyone else i knew .
except for sheryl .
which im fine with her .
but i wanted to get into another class .
with other people .
like , well you know .
and ..
yeah .
i hate my class .
thank god im sitting with sheryl .
otherwise i might feel worse .
i aint feeling that bad honestly .
but i hate my class .
fine . not hate .
i'd rather dislike it very much .
yes .
and this probably doesnt matter much to them .
cos .. i dunno .
but i'd rather be with steph ..
yeah .
but fuck .
i cant .
so im stuck here for the next coming two years .
cheers ?!
no .
blehh .
and today ,
i got my phone taken away .
until the end of the day .
there was this shitass long queue .
you should see the amount of phones confiscated .
amazing .
so much .
the teacher took a picture cos it was kinda funny .
yup .
and my mom had to wait for half an hour .
cos i told her skool ended at 135 .
but it ended at 205 instead .
how was i supposed to know ?
and so we went to KAP .
drive thru . macs .
bought macs .
yumm ..
but i dint finish .
im on a diet .
shmiles . =))
i love val !
she's my darling .
hahhahaha ..
valerie lange so hot .
so sweet .
k im not lesbian .
hahaha ..
oh wells .
sighh ..
im in S1e .
bleh .
so after school ,
i went home .
and then after like an hour .
or something .
val and claire came over .
to see mel .
and then later martin ,
and his people came over as well .
to pick up their instruments .
and they sat by the poolside before they left .
and val attempted to push me into teh water .
but i held on to her legs .
making sure that if i fall in she falls in too .
and guess what ,
soon ,
no idea what happened .
we both ended up in it .
and we found out mel pushed us in .
we were both in school uniforms .
at least val was wearing boxers under her chij pinafore .
i wasnt !
so like ,
i had to hold my skirt down .
cos it's all flowy and shit in the water ..
you know ?
yeap .
so blah-ish .
sighh ..
oh well .
nothing to say .
dont wanna say .

2004-01-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

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2004-01-01T15:47:00.000+08:00

hihi .
yesterday mel and i had a party .
well it was actually her party .
but i had to help out .
pffft .
haha but i dint really mind .
claire val and nat came over early to help .
like you know ,
food , decorations and all .
well the only decorations were stupid balloons that kept popping .
hahas .
yeah .
then martin's band was supposed to be here by 6
to set up the intruments and amps and all before everyone comes .
but they were late .
haha .
bad .
okay so that was the first time i met martin .
he's the drummer .
and i dint really meet him actually .
but he added me on friendster .
which i have absolutely no idea how he knew it's me and all .
haha but oh wells .
soon to know , yeah ?
okay well his band was awesome as hell .
and then everyone came soon after .
we were all in shorts , tanktop or shirt .
walking around barefooted .
haha and i pushed claire into the pool .
actually everyone got pushed in after awhile .
and tim came .
cos i asked him to .
so he took a cab .
okay so it was really good .
then before 12 ,
we turned on the teevee .
countdown !
but no booze . :(
so we cheersed with JUICE .
how so very gay .
a party without booze aint so happening .
really .
haha okay then tim gave me his koala .
uh yeah .
hah .
then later they left around 2 plus .
so early .
cos of my dad .
he came back .
and he said it's getting late .
which is really two-faced .
cos before he left he said ,
oh you guys enjoy yourselves and you can leave anytime
wadafuk .
haha ..
so they had to leave .
which was really disappointing .
then claire ,
jeannine and val slept over .
i slept at 3am .
so sad .
i forgot i had chinese tuition today .
and laoshi came this morning .
at 9am .
i was still in bed .
so tired .
finished at 1030 .
went to see mel and her friends .
they were still sleeping .
haha who wouldnt .
then i went back to bed at 11 ..
but jeannine woke me up at 12 .
to eat lunch .
i dint wanna get up .
but she kept bugging .
haha ..
so i got up .
and went down for lunch .
we had leftovers for lunch .
but it was still good .
yeah .
but while i was sleeping ,
val came in and said bye .
okay i was sleeping ?
so later after lunch .
around 2plus ,
claire left .
then around 3plus ,
jeannine left .
mmhmm ..
please continue tagging my board and keep it alive !
ahh chrissy's on ..
sigh .
im really sleepy .
tennis tonight .
but if i take a nap ,
i wont be able to sleep tonight .
and then i wont be able to get up tmr morning .
ah wells .
i shall go to sleep anyway .
hahaha ..
-squeals-
oh yeah .
the so very nice people who actually bother to visit my blog
despite it's shittyness and retardedness and all the negative points of it ,
will you please tell me what time school ends at mg tomorrow ?
cos im not quite sure .
well see ,
other schools are having cca orientation tmr .
thats why they end school at around 4 or 5
but mg's not having it tmr .
ours is on jan 16th .
so . yeah .
im not sure .
okay .
anyhoo ,
louisa's gonna try fix the runtime errors for me .
yay .
she's so cool .
haha .
see , louisa ?
im so nice .
i complimented you on my blog .
haha ..

2003-12-31T14:32:00.000+08:00

k i like this template
a whole lot better than the previous one .
you could tell me what you think .
but the only problem's the stupid runtime error ,
which louisa hates .
and which im getting annoyed with too .
why are there so many runtime errors ?
dont ask me .
the preview's like only ONE runtime error .
which is aloooottt better than my previous blog .
then this one's got runtime errors too .
so many .
ah wells .
then there's the tagboard .
i hate the way it is when you scroll down
and the board gets messed for awhile .
kinda thing .
annoys me alot .
ALOT .
and uhh ..
my archive links are kinda invisible .
but they ARE there .
so yeah .
click on that .
and please tag my tagboard .
oh yeah .
i left out the password .
i'll add it on later .
so by the time you see this entry ,
the password prompt'll PROBABLY be up already .
cos im gonna set it immediately .
anyway ,
had tuition at nine this morning .
maths .
i hate maths .
math sucks .
okay my dad's sleeping my room .
taking a short nap .
okay so after tuition ,
i took a shower .
and mom and i went to mgs .
again .
im backing out of special course .
no more higher chinese !
woooot .
but like ,
you gotta write a short note to the principle ..
just to let her know you're dropping higher chinese .
uhhmm .
yeah that's about it .
so today's new year's eve .
melly's having a party .
im not inviting my people .
cos i figure most of you guys will be spending it with your families .
steph is i think .
or you cant stay til so late .
or cant sleep over .
all those stuff .
bahh .
and .. yeah .
no booze tho .
no booze for tonight .
mom doesnt allow .
so sad :(
so i gotta buy new books .
no more higher chinese .
new chinese books only .
the rest are kept the same .
so happy :D
but mel's shitass annoying .
biatch .
louisa .. ?
i just realised that
i MISSED YOU LOOAADDDSS !!
you dont hafta miss me tho .
im just letting you know .
so you can .
uh .
call me if you want .
or if i want maybe .
but i dont think i will .
cos i'll never know when you're free .
hee =PpP
so .
yeah . call ?
when you're not bz .
which i hope there IS moment when you're not bz ?
blah .
im uploading my sis's pics for her .
yeah .
damn annoyiinnngg .
wtf .
she kept photos from like ,.
6 months ago ?!
so stupid .
absolutely .
and yeah .
gahh .
im really bored .
and there's nothing to do .
sigh .
anyone wanna go out ?
call me .
or something .
just ..
do it .
and . uh .
tmr .
i dunno .
sigh ..
ladeedoo .
i do that whenever i get too bored .
oh wanna see the pics ?
the pics with me steph and hannah .
wait lemme go get the link for it .

okay here itis .
click on it .

yeap .
really really retarded .
there are other albums .
please check them out .
haha .
like ,
my imagestation .
which is included in my links .
yeah .
and sign my guestbook please !
thanka .
ahh shit i've got a stomachache ..
blah .
had a pretty good lunch .
yeah .
so tonight there'll be lots lotsa food .
im on a diet .
so i shant eat too much .
hee =D
bleh .

2003-12-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

okay .
hi .
so hannah and steph just left .
we took LOTSA retarded pics .
haha ..
went out .
met iris and rach .
this afternoon ..
at heeren .
and then we went to watch a movie .
under the tuscan sun .
good movie i guess .
haha it was okay ..
then iris hannah and i needed to pee badly .
and the queue at cine toilet was so fukken long ..
so we walked to heeren .
and used the toilet .
and rachel dared me to like
grasp my boobs and scream really loud ..
"ahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!"
really high-pitched .
i was like ,
shit , no !
and they said i HAVE to do it .
so i said ,
i'll just hold my stomach and do it ..
in the toilet .
after i pee .
so i can run out immediately .
yes i know .
holding your stomach looks stupid .
and spazzed .
but i did it anyway .
and ran out immediately .
i think i did it too quick .
like not good enough or something .
hahas but oh well .
and we were supposed to take neoprints .
but the queue on both levels were too damn long .
so we dint in the end .
and thennn ..
iris had to leave .
then rach too .
so hannah and steph followed me home .
we had pizza dinner !
hahha there were these really weird pics of us eating pizza .
and yeah we took the pics .
hahas ..
and alot of stuff .
steph wanted to buy a wallet .
and she found this really nice one but it was way too ex .
so yeah .
in the end she couldnt find a nice one . =(
my mom picked us up .
yeapp .
okay . bye .

2003-12-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

steph and hannah are here .
wheeeeeee
say something stephhhh !!

steph :HEYOOO...ermz. i like fish.

uhhhmmm ..
yeahh hahha ..
okay .

hannah : HellooooooooooooOOOOoooo ! i dont like fish .

hahhaha ..
right .
k cool .
byeeee !

2003-12-30T11:35:00.000+08:00

heyyo !
eugenia aint going out with us anymore .
so iris , steph and hannah
are coming over .
and im gonna change my layout and all .
people please tag my tagboard .
it's dying .
oh wait .
what about rach ?
dunno whether she's coming anot ..
maybe .
and yeah .
found a layout i love .
hope it doesnt mess up again tho .
hahas ..
ladeedooo ??
bored shitlessss ..
haha ..
k gonna add the details for my layout now ..

2003-12-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

i just realised i gotta sleep early tonight .
i gotta wake up at 630 for tennis tmr at 7 .
finishes at 8 .
by the time i get home , it's probably 815 to 830 .
then quick shower ,
tuition at 9 !
finishes at 11 ..
2 hrs cos i havnt had tuition for the past 3 months .
and thenn ..
going out with rach
hannah
iris
eugenia
and maybe steph .
yups .
and thenns .. there's tennis again at night .
which im contemplating whether or not to play .
you know ?
i'll probably be bushed from morning stuffs .
but i needa drill .
so i'll probably play .
anyhoo ,
i gotta go now .
to sleep .
and i know it's not early actually .
but . blah .
you know ?
blahhhh .

2003-12-29T17:57:00.000+08:00

im so pissed .
i just wrote a whole shit load of shit .
and my whole msn started screwing up .
which made my comp screw up .
and everything's gone .
anyhoo ,
going out with eugenia
hannah
iris
rach
and maybe steph tmr .
steph has to come !
hahas .
they're gonna meet outside mg busstop .
one of them .
but i cant .
cos i've got tuition .
which ends awhile later .
so i'll just be meeting them at plaza sing ..
supposed to watch a movie at 450pm .
i dunno what movie tho .
haha dint ask .
my bad .

just got off the phone with iris .
and she goes ,
i dont really feel like going anymore .
it's so late !
ahhhh ..
why liddat ..
haha .
okay . im not gonna type so much shit anymore .
i think i have already tho .
haha ..

you made me lose my trust in you .
dont blame me .
you shouldnt .
i dont know whether you do .
but really ,
it aint my fault .
you've changed so much
you dont even realise .
what can i do ?
nothing .

sighh ..
everytime i think about that ,
it gets really depressing .
so i try not to think about it .
but i just did .
so i type it out .
my thoughts .
you know ?
those are special thoughts .
for a special someone .
yeap .
dont ask .
haha .
and yeah .
like steph ,
i'll say ,
i probably wont tell you .
maybe i will .
depending who you are .
and even if you're one of my closestest buds .
maybe i still wont tell .
not that i cant trust you .
but sometimes when it comes to this kinda things ,
i just cant tell .
it's not a matter of trust or anything .
it's a matter of just cant tell .
get what i mean ?
nevermind if you dont .
okay .
i think i'll go to sleep now .
bye .
or maybe i wont .
but yeah .
same thing .
bye .

[falsas esperanzas]

2003-12-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

i could be changing my pass anytime soon .
well ,
i'll be changing it every once in awhile anyway .
so yeah .
are we still as close ?
or are you getting into others face too much .
maybe i AM jealous .
maybe .
just MAYBE .
but i think you should consider yourself too .
thanks .
sigh ...
went to play tennis .
then came back .
jumped into the pool .
took a shower .
had dinner .
and then .
yeahh .
came online .
woot .
shit la ..
i have so many kes for chinese .
gotta learn .
too lazy ..
hahas ..
i might fail chinese next year .
cos im taking goddamn higher chinese .
so shtoopeed .
and morgan ,
that aint louisa's word ,
mind you .
it's mine .
huh !
k cool then .
sigghhh ..
im getting all sigh-ish tonight .
and the string on my tennis racket broke !
haha while i was hitting the ball .
yay .
so proud of myself .
cos that means i hit the ball hard enough .
hehe ..
so many things to do tmr .
i have chinese tuition .
*sob*
for two hours .
*sob*
then i gotta go queensway to buy school shoes .
hahas ..
probably converse ,
adidas ,
or k-swiss .
hehe ..
i deserve a treat !
i've been wearing mel's hand-me-downs for god knows how long .
yeap .
so sad right ?
then gotta rewrap my tennis racket grip .
and then restring my tennis racket .
lalala ..
shit i gotta wake up at 6 on tuesday morning .
tennis .
and yeah .
so depressing .
wake up at six ?!
yeah .
sad case .
louisa .
she blked me .
and her whole msn list .
hahas .
so scary ..
im scared of her .
nah i aint .
she's scared of me i think .
gahahha ..
nick's mom's using the comp ..
so he'll be back later .
im mentioning all this cos im too bored .
yeah .
uhh ..
ahh .
tiiirrreedd .
and bored .
bye .
falsas esperanzas

2003-12-28T13:49:00.000+08:00

okay so yeah .
uhm hey .
im really bored .
and i havnt got anything to type .
but yeah .
im typing .
gonna play tennis later .
yay .
but im still bored right nows .

She's gonna pack her bags
She's gonna find her way
She's gonna get right out of this
She don't want New York
She don't want L.A.
She's gonna find that special kiss
She don't want no sleep
She don't want no high
Oh, like peaches 'n' cream
She's gonna wish on stars and touch the sky
Ah, you know what I mean

hee =D
good song .
mmhmm .
aiyahh .. dunno mans .
bye .
te quiero

2003-12-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey .
louisa .
she thinks i ripped off her idea of putting a password for my blog .
steph .
you be my witness !
dint i ask you for the password code cos i wanted it for my blog ?
and louisa .
you know that i dint rip that off .
are you sure you dont wanna check out the chatlog ?
since you keep accusing .
and publisizing it .
geezes .
and incase you have this thought in mind ,
and i do it after you do ,
and you think i ripped it off you ,
i'll say this first .
i.will.change.my.password.constantly.people.
so yeah .
ahh im playing the shit with friendster .
cos im too bored .
and yeah .
whalalala ..
tits has a new email account .
haha .. yeah .
and he added me on friendster .
whoa .
paul walker's damn hot !
hahah ..
shit .
i dunno what to write .
oh yeah .
i . uh .
went to malacca today .
malaysia .
for half a day .
woke up so early this morning .
can die .
whatt lahh ..
gah .
k gnight .
te quiero

2003-12-26T18:31:00.000+08:00

hey .
so it's a friday .
and i just go louisa's card .
christmas card .
one day late .
wooot .
full of evil wishes .
cant type it out now .
cos i left the card downstairs .
whoops .
my bad .
and wadafuk beatrice ding .
te quiero aint your word .
it's my word .
or even if it is your word ,
i've never heard you say it before .
huh !
so that doesnt count as i taking your word .
okay so i gotta go me
grandmama's place tonight .
blahh .
so not thrilling .
dad's home .
uggghhh .
ahh wells .
morgan ripped off louisa's nickname .
liketotally man .
tommychi[p]s ?!
dude .
so not right .
k cool .
i gotta leave now .
well soon .
whatever .
bye .
te quiero